Hey guys. I know it's been awhile. And by guys I mean like the 2 people that read my stuff. I am so sorry for being so inactive this past school year. I've been busy with show choir, clubs, and just putting myself out there. I wanted to be more valuable then I was. I wanted to put some type or sparkle in my life. And over the past 10 months i can gladly say that I'm happy again. I'm really happy. I'm officially a part of Allure!!! HIGHSCHOOL SHOWCHOIR BOIIISSS!!! WERE STEPPING UP! I've also been in an amazingly perfect relationship. I couldn't be happier man. I don't know where I'd be if he didn't come into my life. He loved me even when I was in my lowest low. He's always been really caring towards me. And he's so flappin cute broooo. Like okay. *Hottie*
And I mean I'm not saying I haven't had my downs. Because everybody has downs. I have downs all the time. But I have been so happy on top of all of those downs. And I couldn't thank my friends more. When the school year started I never thought I was gonna be this happy again. I had just went through a shitty break up with a guy that I wasn't even official with yet. I was depressed and inclosed. I pushed every single person that cared about me away. Just because of a guy that hurt me.
But I decided to push that down and better myself. For me, my family, friends, and my relationships. I put me before a guy that took over my life. A guy that took over my summer nights with thoughts of wanting to harm myself.
For once I chose me.
I chose me over making other people happy. I always tried making others happy and didn't think about myself. I let toxic people into my life just to be stabbed in the back. And I felt bad at first. For leaving all the people that "cared" about me.
Because then I lost a lot of friends. A lot of people talked about me to make themselves feel better. But thanks to the people I have now I never let that get to me.
I realized that I'd much rather have good friends then be popular anyday. And I get that people think I'm "popular" but I don't hang out with anybody. If you wanna call me a "popular loner" that would be a lot better then "oh you're popular."
Because I don't like people very much. I don't like being around toxic people. Yes I do know a lot of people. But I will not let ever toxic person I meet be my friend.
I just hope you guys know I didn't leave. And I'm sorry for not talking about my break. But I was to the point to where I didn't know where life was going to take me.
But I'm on a roller coaster now. And I am so ready for what's to come.
The good.
The bad.
That all makes me me.
And I couldn't be happier with myself🙂
