50 Shades Darker.

chapter 10

“Its a beautiful night, were looking for something dumb to do. Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you......”

★Selena POV★

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There's always a day when your boyfriend, asks you to marry him. But there's always something that is an obstacle.

It's been 24 hours since he asked me to marry him. I haven't talked to him since then. I'm not sure what to expect.

“marry me...”

Those were the last words I heard coming out if Justin's mouth. I was shocked. Did he love me that much that I would marry him? Of course I wanna marry him, but do quickly? We're not even dating yet.

“Babe?” I walked inside the room and sat on the bed “we need to talk”

He looked up from his phone and eyed me. He's eyes were hurt. I could tell. We haven't had any form of communication in the last 24 hours. Of course he's gonna be hurt.

“Look, why did you ask me to marry you?” I gave him a concerned look.

“I love you, and I wanna marry you. Is there a problem with that?” he harshly said and got off the bed.

I followed behind him and shook my head. “No it's ju-” he cut me off

“Do you even wanna marry me? I mean, you have such a big pride and prejudice and discrimination against well dare shall I say it? Love”

Ah, the root of the request. He's gonna, use love against me and make him win. What kind of person does that? We both have the same problems with love. I'm scared to fall in love again.

“Look, I haven't told you why I'm scared of love. It's a complicated and expensive situation, but I'm willing to tell you, if your willing to listen” I looked up at he's brown eyes and licked he's lips.

“Enlighten me then” he whispered agianst my lips.

I breathed in and out. Here I ago. “It all started about 5 to 6 years ago. I was just a young 17 year old girl that didn't know anything. He's name was Trey. He was cute, I thought I was in love, until I wasn't. I found out he killed people for a living, raped women and sellers thier bodies. It was disgusting and—” I knew telling him my story was gonna be difficult. I don't tell people about this certain subject “—sad, he told me that, if I love him, he would accept for who he was. But I couldn't accept him. I realized that I didn't love him. It was just feelings and emotions towards him. That's not love. I took me a while to get over him. He killed himself 2 years ago” I spoke the last part quickly.

Justin looked at me in shock. “He cheated on me along the way, also my other boyfriends. My relationship with him, was just a lie. I don't wanna make that mistake again”

He looked at me and shook he's head. Hugging me in a loving and caring embrace. “I'll never leave you” I smiled

For once in my life, after all this shit that's made me hide love, I finally feel free and content with my life.

“I'm sorry” he frowned “I love you and I know I've been doing shit, but you have to trust me” he spoke with eternal love in he's voice.

I nodded. I trust him. That's why I'm still in this relationship. People see him s a rich crazy billionaire, you fucks girls for a living and doesn't care if they in love with him or not. But I love him for who he's is. Like heobes me for a shy and quiet, poor girl who lives with her two best friends, but he's accepts me and loves me.