Lies, hate but her

6

A few months passed. I'm in labour now and just about to push. The only person around when I went into labour was Fredrick. He came to talk and I went into labour. Freddie is waiting outside.

"Ready Emma? One big push" the midwife says looking up at me.

"You ready em" Fredrick asked as he tried to hold my hand.

"You hold it. I break it" I growl looking up at him in pain.

"That solves the hold hand dilemma" he said earning himself a glare from me.

He stepped back looking scared. I deliverd Freddie on my own and now I'm going to do the same with this one. I took a deep breath and pushed as hard as I could.

"Good girl Emma. Keep pushing" the midwife encouragingly said smile.

I pushed again maybe a little less harder since I have no energy to push anymore. I stopped and rested my head back out of breath.

"I see the head" Fredrick excitedly say looking down at it. He smiled bright as he was staring. "It has a head. Emma the baby is headless" he says happily still staring at my crutch.

"Stop staring at my vagina!" I snapped as I just wanted to push again.

"Sorry" he quickly replied standing back up straight.

"Another big push Emma. One last one ready" the midwife says smiling at me.

I nod and push one last time. Using everything inside me. This was so much harder than when I done it with Freddie. He was such a small baby. I finally felt the baby out of me and relaxed down with a long sigh. I had tears in my eyes and was sweating lots.

"You did it" Fredrick says sounding a little shocked at me.

"Congratulations Emma. You have a baby girl" the midwife says holding the crying baby girl in her arms.

I saw Fredrick go round and take the baby from her. He was smiling down at her and looking so happy to be a dad. He walked over to me and I looked away.

"Emma what's wrong" he asked confused.

"I'm not keeping her. I already said it. You take her and raise her. I don't want to do it all again" I refuse while shaking my head while facing the ground.

"Emma"

"No. You can keep her. She's your daughter" I cut in. I know I can't do this. I have too much to worry about than a baby. "Can you just get Freddie please? He wants to meet her first" I asked looking up at little but not at the baby.

"Ok but I need you to hold her while I do" he says as he gestured for me to take her.

I sighed and held my arms out. He carefully placed the baby into my arms before leaving. I walk looking away because I didn't want to see her. She then hiccuped. The whole pregnancy she hiccuped. I looked down at her and she did it again. Her bottom lip was sticking out and her eyes were tightly shut. I remembered when Regina tried giving Aubrey away and I made her hold her. I'm feeling the same now. I know I love this baby. She's so beautiful.

"Why are you so beautiful baby" I asked with a sigh at the baby. I saw her move ever so slightly closer to me. "You sneaky bugger. Fine. I'll keep you. I promise I'll be a good mum and I'll always be there for you. Your my baby girl" I say tearing up at the gorgeous baby in my arms.

"Thank god. I can't raise a child alone" Fredrick says from the doorway with Freddie.

"Well have joint custody ok" I say looking up at him.

"So we're really keeping her" Freddie asked with a smile.

"Yes sweetie. Now you come name her" I say smiling back at my son.

"Veronica. Roni for short" he quickly replied walking over to see the baby.

"Veronica it is. Are you happy with that Fredrick" I asked with a smile that I can't stop.

"What ever Freddie wants. Emma she's beautiful. Can I hold her" Fredrick asked stepping closer to see his daughter.

I listed her up and placed her in my ex's arms. He may be a dick but he really seems to care about Veronica. I looked up at my son and he smiled down at me.

"Can you call Monica" I asked realising only Freddie and Fredrick know I'm here.

"Sure. Do you want to speak to her or me" he says talking his phone out.

"You. Just tell her that me and you will be coming over with a surprise tomorrow" I say smiling up at the baby in Fredrick's arms.

As Freddie started to call Monica I thought about my future. I'm not sure how I can look after another baby. I have Freddie, Aubrey and Regina to look after. Now another child. This was going to be insane. And hard.

"Can I have her" I asked holding my arms up at Fredrick. He placed her in my arms and all my thoughts left my head. "Hey Veronica. Hey there little Roni. I love you my baby" I say softly down at the small human in my arms.

And just like that. I couldn't imagine my life without Roni or Freddie... or Regina.