Love You So Bad (Taejin)

03 A girl

Taehyung's p.o.v

The serious expression on dad's face made me realize that he was not kidding. Jungkook let out a low whistle and mom just looked at me carefully. The only one who did not seem shocked at the idea was Hoseok. For him it was also the only possible solution besides what would he say that papa preferred to go through the shame of seeing his son dressed as a girl than to go through the shame of economic ruin.

"Dad."

I said weakly, but one look of his was enough to silence me. I was not Yoonji, I did not have her strength, so when dad decided that I would disguise myself to cheat the Kim family I could not say no. My only hope was my condition as a boy, however much we were same the difference was obvious. No one would believe that I was Yoonji right??

I thought that until I saw myself dressed like her that day later, with her clothes and accessories. Mom praised me with a smile and dad gave his approval, however Jungkook gave me a look of sadness. Hoseok had left an hour ago, so at least I avoided the embarrassed of seeing him like this.

They left me alone then. So I took this as an opportunity to flee to the small hidden library. That place belonged to me. I locked the door and looked at myself in the full body mirror. It was there for Yoonji who was the only one I let in here.

I was very surprised by what I saw. Yoonji and I really looked a lot like each other, Our features, our eyes, everything. The only difference was she had breast and I was flat, Of course that problem mom had solved with some stuffing. I could not tell how ashamed I felt that time. And it was the very image of Yoonji. Yet if I looked at the reflection closely I could see myself, Taehyung, the male twin. Despite the resemblance I hoped that Kim Seokjin would be able to differentiate me from my sister.

I frowned, putting a hand to the neck of the dress. I could not deny that I really looked a lot like Yoonji.

"Taehyung." It was Jungkook, but I did not answer. "Are you ready??" I considered that a stupid question. How could someone be ready for something like this??

"Can you open the door??"

"I don't want to."

"Come on, Taehyung I have seen you in the dress. Remember??"

I did not answer. For him it would be the funniest thing in the world, but it was not for me. It was humiliating for me to wear these clothes, it was shameful. I hated Yoonji very much. But in spite of it I could not feel anger against her, she was the victim more. If I had to hate someone it should be our father or much better to Kim Seokjin, the only one who was responsible for this catastrophe.

"Honey, get out now. Seokjin has arrived."

Mom's voice made me jump, making me trip over my feet as I went to the door wearing those damn heeled shoes that I had to wear. I managed not to fall and ruin the dress. I knew it that my clumsiness would make it own playing until the end.

I looked into the mirror once again, with mixed feelings. I really hoped that Seokjin would realize the truth, but thinking about dad and what his reaction would be made me scared and I did not want Seokjin to discover the truth. Could I act like a girl?? Sighing I walked over to the door with the small key tightly clenched in my right fist. I had to do it, for Yoonji, for the family and above all for my cowardice.

I put the key in the lock and opened the door only to see my mom and Jungkook, plus a young man I had never seen before. Or did I ?? I did not know why but he looked familiar to me. He was thin with light skin, dark hair and very deep eyes. It was no doubt that he was pretty handsome.

Before I could say a word the man took a step towards me. I did not know how I should react to that, so I just looked at him, begging him to notice my discomfort and move away. But instead his eyes sought mine. I did not resist the shame and looked away.

"Daughter." Mom spoke then." He is Kim Seokjin, your fiance."

I knew it, already knew it. I had heard a lot about him, about his great physical attractiveness and now I could see it on my own eyes. He was very handsome and in a way that destroyed my ego as a man. He would never have passed as a girl, his masculinity was more than evident.

Without looking at him I nodded, lowering my face as much as I could. And this time too without saying anything Seokjin took my hands in his. I wanted to push him away, but I felt mama'a gaze on me. Any bad gestures to Seokjin was unacceptable and if I did something, she would not hesitate to run and tell dad everything.

"It's a pleasure to meet you Kim Yoonji."

I heard the man's soft voice. I did not know what to do. Should I say the same thing?? Or should I remain silent??

"Yoonji" Jungkook spoke this time, crossing his arms."Say something to your fiance."

I knew I should say something to the boy who believed that I was Yoonji. I filled myself with courage and looked up at him. He stared at me with such intensity that I felt uncomfortable. Another man was looking at me like that made me want to scream.

"The pleasure is all mine." I finally said."It will be an honour to be your wife."

A huge smile appeared on the boy's face. And I looked away again, confused and annoyed. What idiot did he has to be more to realize that I was a man, not a woman.

"Let's go outside." My mom said cheerfully."Your parents must have arrived by now, Jin."

"Of course."

He said and stepped aside to give mom space to walk away. Jungkook looked at him with a frown but left with mom leaving me behind with Seokjin, my sister's fiance who did nothing but stared at me as if I were something he could eat. what kind of person was this Seokjin?? And what exactly did he want from Yoonji??

"Let's go."

He said and smiled at me again. I nodded, but my eyes widened when he offered me his arm to take. This kind of thing only happened in movies.

I had no choice but to follow the game. Outside almost a part had been set up. The servants carried the suitcase to the house, I looked at them, they were looking at me pitifully. They were aware about what had happened to Yoonji, but they had received dad's warning not to say a word. And nobody could disobey our father well of course except Yoonji.

"This should be a grand wedding."

Dad said to another man which I assumed probably Seokjin's father. He then looked at me and smiled approvingly. I sighed reluctantly, earning a look from Seokjin.

"You are okay right??"

"Yes."

I mumbled and got away from him. It was annoying to be so close to that boy, which I definitely did not like.

I was introduced to Mr. and Mrs Kim- Yoonji's future parents-in-law and the obligatory question arrived.

"Where is Taehyung??"

Mom laughed weakly but dad kept his composure.

"He is studying abroad."

"But he will be here for the wedding right??"

"Of course." Dad said and then looked at me."Is not that he told you, Yoonji that he will be here for the wedding."

"Yes dad."

I mumbled feeling my cheeks getting hotter and hotter. Lies and lies. why did not that stupid family realize it?? I was Taehyung! I wanted to scream at top of my lungs and to take off this dress. I wanted Seokjin to stop looking at me that way and I wanted Yoonji to come back. But nothing of that could happen. Dad's gaze was still on me and the memory of those beatings was enough to intensify the fear. If I ruined it, dad would make me pay dearly.

"Let's go inside." Mom said to Seokjin and his family." And have something to eat."

She looked like a typical American housewife.

"Yoonji."

Seokjin again. Damn it. Why this guy could not leave me alone for a second. I was getting sick of it.

"Yes."I said with a smile.

"Nothing. Just-Umm....forget it."

He offered me his arm again and I accepted it again. His eyes were fixed only on me making me want to cry out loud.

Yoonji, why didn't you take me with you??