Love You So Bad (Taejin)

04 Almost

Seokjin's p.o.v

Everytime I looked at Yoonji I didn't know why I lost myself, in her delicate features, in her tanned skin, in her pink lips. I could see her discomfort, but that was not enough to make me look away a bit. I guess I am that stubborn.

It annoyed me that we were so far apart, as soon as we entered the dining room Jungkook had taken her by the hand and made her sit beside him. I could understand his protective instinct as an elder brother of Yoonji but it still bothered me.

My parents chatted with Mr and Mrs Kim. I sighed. My parents did not like my getting married so soon without knowing the girl properly. I looked at Yoonji again and saw her whispering something to Jungkook who in response nodded his head. They were too close and that made me feel jealous. I knew I was stupid, they were brother and sister after all.

".....And our garden is the largest in Korea. It's almost a national pride." said Yoonji's mother. I paid attention to their conversation then, taking off the view off Yoonji.

"A garden??!!"

"yeah, Jin the most beautiful in Korea."

"I wish I could see it." I said with an idea in my mind.

"Of course!!" Mrs Kim exclaimed in joy. "Jungkook honey can you....."

"Actually." I interrupted." I'd like Yoonji to come with me."

As soon as I said that I noticed the same strange reactions on the family's face, although in the end Mr kim agreed that Yoonji should accompany me but seeing the expression on my fiance's face, I knew it did not make her happy.

I had to take it easy, I reminded myself as we left the room with her in front of me walking. We were just seeing each other for the second time. She did not know me that much. I had to work on that. I had to make her fall in love with me. I stared at her from the back then I realized that she seemed to have troubled in walking, as if something was hurting her.

"Yoonji."

I called but she kept walking ahead without paying any attention to me. I noticed her outline, her small waist. All of it was perfect.

"It's here."

She said. I looked around me, it was at the back of the imposing house. There were all kinds of plants, some that could not be even found in Korea.

"Wow!!" 

"Mom takes care of it as if it is her life."

Yoonji murmured while caressing the petals of a rose. She was looking breathtaking. I wished I had my camera with me now.

"Well anything can becomes your life if you love it the most." I said containing my impulses.

"Only beautiful things can be life of someone." She replied and turned her back on me.

"But you are the most beautiful person here."

I said softly, feeling myself blush a little. She did not answer but started walking through the garden. I hurried to follow her. There were so many plants and flowers, a lot of ornaments, a tea table and some folding chairs. It reminded me of something that I had seen in an English movie.

In the centre of that imposing garden there was a fountain, in the centre of that there was a sculpture of couple swans. It was beautiful. I could not help but admire the sculpture feeling that Yoonji was doing the same like me.

"You like this right??" I asked and she seemed to look interested as she looked at me directly for the first time.

"Of course it's so beautiful. Isn't it??"

"Yes, can I know who the artist is?? I want something like this for me too."

Yoonji shook her head and said"That's impossible. The artist was my grandfather. He died two years ago."

"Sorry."

"It's okay." She said and looked away again. I looked at her side profile and felt like touching. It was not a perverted thought. I just wanted to know how her skin would feel under my fingers. I knew it would be as smooth as it seemed.

"Are there more artists in your family??" I inquire to continue listening her sweet voice, without stopping looking at her. She had such a deep voice as a girl but I liked it. He had me that hypnotized.

"No." Yoonji shook her head and looked down while continuing "But  sometimes Taehyung sculpts."

"Really!! It must be awesome then."

"The truth is no. He does not do well as he should."

She mumbled crossing her arms. Her answer surprised me a lot. Should not you give your twin more support?? And besides the tone that she had used sounded like she was disappointed in him.

"Umm..Speaking of Taehyung. When is he coming?? I really want to meet my brother-in-law."

But Yoonji shrugged her shoulders in response turning her back on me and started walking again. It was then that she took a false step and almost fell on the wet grass. I managed to hold her by the arm and pulled her close to my chest.

"Did you hurt yourself??"

She shook her head with her cheeks dyed a bright red. And that sweet reaction of her made me feel nervous and happy as well. So I had some effect on her.

"It's the shoes." She said, getting away from me.

"The shoes??" I took a quick glance at the nice white heels she were wearing. I could see the shoes were so tight for her.

"Yes, I am not used to wearing heels." She murmured and I let out a laugh, getting a little closer.

"I think if they are bothering you so much , you should remove them. Who told you to wear something you don't used to??"

Yoonji's eyes widened." Would not it bother you??"

I smiled and said."Why it would bother me?? It does not matter to me what you wear as long as you are comfortable with it." 

He studied me with her big eyes, maybe thinking if I was lying or not. But what I said was true so I held her gaze and waited. In the end she smiled so beautifully for the first time in front of me that I had to clench my fists to not act impulsively.

"Thank you."

She said softly and went to sit on the edge of the fountain. I was going to imitate her, but then I saw her pulled her dress up to the knee to take off her shoes. I immediately turned around, my heart agitated. She was a girl. How could she do that?? We were meeting for the second time. Was Yoonji always like this?? Or I was her soon to be husband that's why she felt comfortable around me.

"Mom picked them for me." She explained, getting up. I turned around to look at her. She smiled at me while continuing "I don't like when girls wear it."

"And what you like??"

"I don't know. Simple maybe."

We stared at each other. She was still smiling. She looked much more relaxed now that she had removed her shoes.

"I think we like same things."

I mumbled and took a step towards her before placing my hand on her cheeks. The smile on her face disappeared and I saw her tensed up again under my touch. I did not have to worry. I was there to protect her, to make her happy. I would never do something that she did not want.

"Umm....Seokjin."

But there would be problems. Hearing her pronounced my name for the first time with that sweet deep voice made me lose control. I leaned in, I could feel her warm breath. I wanted to kiss her so bad.

"Yoonji."

I whispered and before I could kiss her, Yoonji pushed me away making me stumbled back. She looked at me with such a grimace and started to run where we had arrived.

What did I do wrong??