Pen And Paper

Bullied

Reading the stories about being bullied by your fellow classmates, take me my school days where my fellow classmates bullied me.

It's feels like yesterday where I'm facing same situation like you guys who bullied by fellow classmates. Reading articles about bulling make me nostalgic and flashbacks running in front of me about those dreadful days which I'v been faced in my childhood or u can say my whole school life.

I know how its feel when your classmates make fun of you, make pranks to you,say many disgusting things about you, make your whole day awful.
Talking about me what I felt about being bullied in school is feeling about myself worst, good for nothing,fragile,disgust,weak , and felt depressed.

Emotionally its hell where bunch of emotions going through your mind at same place, like tsunami came over of emotions and you don't know how to react and felt about it, sometimes I've cried alot about being in this situation and sometimes I felt nothing like my soul is dead and many times I've think to killed myself, I know sound stupid to attempt suicide but at that time nothing positive came at my mind..

Its feel like everything is over and ruined nothing going to be fine, its my life and its always be like this, but life is all about learning and making the mistakes some days are good and some are bads, every day teach us some thing new..

So being the victim of bully now I'm going to tell you about my bullied days, how I've survived and fought for myself, because no one fight your battle only you are who can help yourself so here I'm telling you my story.

Story of my life,
Name doesn't matter
So here I'm one of those bullied who survived and fought for my identity..

2 March 2011
Final year of school
.
.
Being a fat girl , I always think does its shame to be a fat girl or a double sized. Every single day of school , I've get bullied by my fellow classmates who torture me , pranked me , bullied me its feel disgust to be on that situation.
They welcomed me in school by commenting nasty things about my body , clothes, size, eating habits, and many other things. They gave many awfuls nickname like fatty and fatso.

Bully is being part of my life which my fellow did to me some times there pranks are not just normal they hurts me physically too at same time emotionally.
My parents always told me that I'm beautiful girl and being fat is normal, its doesn't matter how you look and beauty doesn't all matter about sized , its all matter about being yourself in or out.

My parents help me a lot in my life and they know about my bully they complaint about it to school authority also and school authority take action also but they stopped bully only for month then again they treat me like animal and there torture became worst, Then when ever my parents talk about school and again being bully, I always said now everything is fine no one bully me now.

The thing is that I want to take stand for my self not my parents because its my life and they always not present for me.
But I'm so wrong because at that time I'm so coward who can't take stand for herself.
My school fellow treat me like animal and worst of it, they dont feel mercy about me , always bully me and torture me that make me thing my life is full of crisis .
I always asked to god why my life is this ,why my fellow classmates torture me, why I'm fat just why the only thing that goes on my mind.

Whenever I Stand in front of mirror I disgust myself because its remind me the whole prank and bully thing happenning due to my over sized. I'm ashamed of myself and being coward.
Like classes and year passed nothing changed they bullied me more and my depression also increased
Depression which lead me in my worst days where I never think one right thing, sometimes I cried being having this awful life to being in this situation and sometimes taking the decision to take my life to commit a suicide.
Suicide is tough decision and stupid too, I've also remembered when I took the blade and thinking to cut my wrist but the happy faces of my family came I'm my mind and how they feel when I'm gone away to there life.
There is no fault of them or I
But having the tsunami of emotions taking me at that point where nothing positive is came at my mind.