Chapter 2: dangerously close
I slowly began chugging the liquids contents down, hoping I didn't spill any but a little dribble went down my chin as I finished.
"Jee kan, newver thought I would see you so eager ta drink" I chuckled. "do you happen to have more actually?" he grinned. "I vwill cherish this wvery moment forewver" he mumbled, sliding a case in front of him them leaning back as he tossed a can at me.
"Drink up baby" he said, taking a long swig of his can. "oh I will" I whispered and downed the next.
We both ended up laughing and downing the whole case. I drank more then him though he said "i'll be the responsible one kanny~!" and laughed.
"Ya knovw kan, I lowve you so much. I hawve for quite some time novw" I blushed and grinned, lazily leaning on him with a frown.
"I know.. and I love you too cro.. but.. i" I looked down and started mumbling. "I don't think I can do it any more" he looked surprised.
"Oh? come on kan tell me vwaz upp vwe cen hawve a feelins' jam" he smiled and wrapped his arm around my waist. He was warm and it made me feel better.
"Sure.." I said, eventually to find myself laying on his chest as he pet my hair. Which might I add, is soothing
"I.. I don't deserve to be in this world cronus.." he stopped petting my hair for a bit then looked at my eyes with his own dilated ones.
He curled the ends. "vwhy do you think that chief?" he watched my face as it cringed. I gripped his shoulders lightly and shut my eyes tight.
"..It hurts.. no one cares. why don't they care cro?!" I started crying and I sat up, running my hands through my hair.
"w-wHY DON'T THEY CARE?!" I sobbed loudly "they don't want me here.. they just want me to shut up!" as a shiver takes over my body, more tears slide down my cheeks.
"K-Kan! I care no one else matters but you and me okay...?" I trembled and opened my tear filled eyes, softly speaking "why should I stay?" before he talked I added on "I don't understand why people don't care.." I sniffled and felt arms hug me from behind and I jumped up, glaring at Cronus.
"No! you don care either! y-you never truly listen.. N-not even when I told you about my problems.. you just wanted me to stop talking and 'be more useful' cro!" I cried harder, thinking.
He got up fast "no kan stop sayin' that! I care so much about you!.. and yes.. it's true.. a lot of the times I vwas bored vwith vwhat you said.. but novw that I think back.. I vwish I vwould hawve listened! I vwas bein' stupid and shellfish.." he started crying.
I grabbed my sickle and held it up. "no one else listened either.. they just told me to stop. like you did too.. how do I know you just don't want me to go this far?! that you just PITY me?!? Well I don't need your pity.." I slowly dragged the blade on my arm adding to the paintings along them, this time they're deep..
really deep..
They bled everywhere as I began to speak again. "Is this what you all wanted.. for me to just.. sHUT UP?"
Tears started mixing with the blood on my arms and I sobbed, crying out. "I hope I make everyone happy with this" I had the sickle wrapped around my own neck and I tugged at it, coughing.
Some blood escaped the side of my mouth and I started a fit of coughing and choking as the blade was pulled at my neck.
"Kan!" he ran over to me and picked me up. "vwhy didn't you say anyfin to me! kan I lowve you!" he started rushing out the door and I rested my head on his shoulder, slowly falling into sleep.
