Different

Part 4

*3 weeks later*

Maddie's POV :

I'm on my way to the nearest drug store. It's only 12 minutes and 17 seconds away from my "home", so luckily I don't have to walk that long.

I HATE any type of physical exercise with all my heart ! Normally kids at my age would love to run around and play, but not me. I'd rather read an interesting book. I'm too lazy for sports, it's sad...I know.

But I don't have time to think about hobbies or my freetime at all, I have to do something more important. Something that could change my future...for the worse.

I never thought I had to do this, especially at the age of 12, but something happened :

I'm 9 days late ... for my period. I was one of the unlucky ones and got it when I was like 11 years and 2 months old. That's way too soom for my taste, but even though I don't like it, I know I have to live with it. To this day I don't understand how some girls actually want to get there period as soon as possible. I think they think they will feel more like an actual woman once they have their monthly visit, but they are TOTALLY wrong about that.

When I got my first period I felt like a bloody potato sack, it was horrible, because I had very painful cramps. But for one thing I'm really glad : it happened when I was at home, so nonoby saw it and I didn't get embarrassed.

Anyways... I'm not only late for my period, I also had more appetite the last days and I also gained some weight, not much, but still.

I know what these symptoms can mean. I really hope I'm just stressing over nothing and that I'm just a little sick...otherwise I have to make a very difficult decision...

I'm now standing in front of the drug store.

Shit, I can't go in there. What if my worries become reality ? This can't happen.

I feel a lump in my throat, that can only mean one thing : I'm just a tiny bit away from crying.

Stay strong, Maddie !

You can do it !

Just go in there, take the test and everything will be fine !

I can't believe myself, nothing is going to be alright ! For christ's sake, I'm only 12, how am I going to live if there are two lines...it would be the end of me...

I'm still arguing with myself when I suddenly have a creepy feeling...like someone is watching me. I turn around just to see that nobody is staring at me...

I shrug the feeling off and finally go into the drug store.

Great. Now I have to find the section with pregnancy tests... this will be so much fun (not) !

I walk around and try to guess where the pregnancy tests could be.

*5 minutes later*

I finally found the right section. I have been walking around for a few minutes now and I think that's why the cashier thought I'm here to steal something. Well, he has not spoken one single word with me, but he watched me the whole time, like he waited for the moment when I would grab something. I actually can imagine him screaming stuff like :

PUT THIS BACK AND LEAVE THIS STORE AND DON'T YOU EVER COME BACK !!!

And I have to admit, the image is more funny than scary.

Well, back to the tests.

I know nothing about them, I mean I don't know which ones are more accurate. Thank god I am not stupid, so I know one test isn't enough to surely have a correct result. I think I will buy 3, each one from a different brand, so I can know for sure. But how am I going to choose 3 different brands when there are like 10 available. I know 2 brands from some commercials, so I pick them. Now I have to decide which one is going to be the 3rd. Knowing I shouldn't decide by the the cover, I close my eyes and randomly point at one. I pick the 3rd test and make my way over to the cash desk.