Living With The Cooper Boys

Hope

Will I ever see her beautiful face again? her sweet smile , her flawless skin, her shiny blonde hair?

Nothing could I do but just hope

What if she really was gonna die? I slapped my face to knockout these awful thoughts but you can never hide from reality

All I could do was to hope ......she'll be well

I had to take care of my little brother Jason...but why was this so hard on me I was just but 15! except that my 16th birthday was two weeks later

I had was in the 7th grade but I had to make sure my brother ate,took a shower, did his assignments, was early for school, do all the chores and taking care of ME!

This was just too much I just wanted mommy to be well and come back home

What hurt me most was my drunkard dad he used to abuse my mom and hit her so hard that blood used to gush out like an  overflowing fountain

When we tried running away he always had a way to find us and when he did he used to beat mum so hard that I couldn't stand it

Now mom was in hospital but she went late of which she had cancer and she was told she only has a few days to live

My mom's condition worsened each day but there is nothing I could do but hope and pray for her

I visited her everyday and sometimes I went over with Jason

Jason used to caress her hair and kiss her forehead and sometimes he told her how much he loved her and what he did at school

"Mommy and you know I want to be a great astronaut one day and I'll drive you to mars and jupiter and Venus mommy",Jason used to say to mom

This made me cry and considering how close he was to mom and I just could not imagine a life without her

I kept on visiting mom bringing her flowers and get well soon cards ........until one day it all came to pass

As I was holding flowers in one hand I went to see my mom but I was shell shocked when I was stopped by the doctor " you can't see her at the moment"he said

"Why ?" Could she  have...have..d .. No snap out of it obviously she wasn't dead or was she?

"I'm sorry Chantal, but we tried everything we could " said the doctor

At hearing this I dropped the bouquet of flowers, and muffled up my eyebrows to see if It was only a nightmare

I was struck by reality and broke into tears I cried and cried....until my eyes were all red and puffy

I wept until tears could no longer come out of my eyes

The doctor tried comforting me but all was in vain

I kept only crying until my eyes were blocked with tears and I fell asleep