Dear me

Chapter 4 (Sadness is different from Depression)*

Previously...

The black haired girl stood up and went towards the stairs. "I'll have to prepare my skates and clothes. Be right back." she says before climbing upstairs.

The amber haired girl sadly sighed. "I feel bad for her."

Armin had a questionable face on. "Why?"

Nanami sadly smiled at him. " She never had a happy family. Her mother didn't know about her husband having a family before them. Her father left them without anything. No money, no shelter. Nothing. Her mother started to treat Erna like a mistake. Mentally and Physically abusing her. She forced Erna to go to the military just for them to get enough money for her older siblings."

Aki continued. "Erna can't speak her own language from her own country. Her mother said that if she did ever speak of such language, she won't have to eat for weeks. She has to do everything her mother says. Saying emotions are such useless things to have. Saying that she is something useless to have.Erna never had a life of a real child. Erna struggled to make friends because people think she's a monster. She's always had to keep her words to herself and bottle her emotions. She's just a puppet for her mother. Until her mother caught a sickness. She had to stay in the hospital while Erna was in war.  By the time she arrived at the hospital, she wasn't greeted with crying happy tears of her mother for being alive. Hell, Erna was shot so close to the heart and she was still bleeding when she got there. All her mother was to say was how she nearly killed the army and it was her fault. On how she was stupid of joining when she sacrificed herself to save a thousand soldiers." 

Erwin, Hanji and Levi looked to each other and nodded, telling them to continue.

"Sleepless nights for her. To be honest, when she saw us care for her for the first time. To have real food for once. And someone there who actually loves her imperfections. That was the first time in her whole life she cried her whole heart out. She told us she tried to kill herself several times. The words her mother told her throughout her life made her anxiety grow larger, making her prevent herself from dying. Words cut deeper than words. And unlike physical wounds, words can cut deeper in you skin. It can stay there to make you lose your sanity...

...You know, I actually met her dad." Yoshi said. "He was kind really. But very cold to his family. I always wondered why he left Erna when he told me he loved her dearly. The problem was that he can be bipolar to his wife which made them split up. And he was merciless."

Hiro looked at Eren. "Eren, you should be lucky. You had a mother who cared for you no matter what happens. She even sacrificed herself to save both you and Mikasa. I just want you to know that."

Everyone went silent. But it wasn't uncomfortable. Strangely enough, it was peaceful, even if they heard so much about this mysterious black haired girl.

The aura was interrupted by footsteps coming down the stairs.

"Hey Aki, we should go now. We don't want to extend our time with Suda Sensei, do we now?" She laughed.

Aki smiled. "Okay Erma. Get your bike. I'll follow."

Erna looked a bit pissed. "Akira, do you really want 50 pushups from Coach Via? Ugh, never mind. I'm going ahead alright."

"Okay."

Morana left leaving the others looking at the door.

"Are you guys gonna stay here or are you coming later? We have skating practice later. You guys can look." Aki suggested.

"Skating? What's that?" Eren asked.

"It's like dancing on ice with blades carrying you so you can perform gracefully. But you need good balance." Aki exclaimed.

"I'm coming!" Eren shouted.

"If Eren is coming so will I. Eren will surely die if I'm not with him." said Mikasa.

"Mikasa!"

Armin stood up "So will I."

Yoshi laughed. Eren looked at the siva. 

"What?" he asked.

"Good luck with that Eren. Balancing in ice is more difficult than balancing in your 3DMG."

"Ohoho game on." Levi stated, standing along with Erwin and Hanji.

Aki smiled. "I guess everyone's coming. You guys can go ahead. It's quite far from here. Hiro, you guys buy some clothes for them. We'd want them to blend in with our world...So I'll see you later?"

Nanami smiled. "Okay. Be careful okay?"

While all of that was happening, Misaki was smiling, uncontrollable tears fall out of her beautiful steel indigo eyes. She heard all of the things they talked about. She remembered her past. She was happy and sad at the same time. She was here. Alive. Free. She can now do what she wants to do. Even if she still has a few strings attached to her, she can move by her own. And she was grateful to have a new family. Her friends.

Wiping away the tears, she pedaled faster. 

"Isnt it lovely 

 all alone 

 heart made of glass

 my mind of stone?"

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A/n : Sorry for the short chapter! I hope I can make it longer, but I still have several things to plan. Also, that poem isn't originally mine just to make things clear. Peace out!

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