Testimony

The End Of Me

(Erica)

I woke up to Trey looking at me his face barely an inch away from mine. "Did you go to sleep" I asked him.

"I got a few hours...did you rest well" he smiled.

I closed my eyes and sat up "What I could" I answered getting out of bed. 'Where are you going' I heard him ask. I bit my lip knowing not to turn around because he would know I was lying if he saw my face. "I'm going to the downstairs guest room for a while need to clear my head" I started out the door. I felt him right behind me.

"I'll come with you"

"No, Trey I'm fine I just need to be alone right now" I opened the door to the room and turning around.

His tone became worried just like his like his face, his brow was furrowed "I don't think that's a good idea Erica. You being alone at this state..." his brown eyes were slightly sunken in from the lack of sleep and bags of a black hue were forming under them.

I pecked his lips giving him a small smile "Just a couple hours, Trey, okay, I'll be fine". He nodded and gave me a smile back before I closed the door.

I closed my eyes regretting what I was about to do but I needed my kids back. I change clothes putting on one my lucky bra. Then Jason's favorite dress it was light sun shine yellow that was really gorgeous against my skin. Complete contrast the pewter grey of my relationship with the man I was wearing the dress for. I grabbed my keys off the dresser and purse; grateful that I decided to come down here. I opened the window and climbed out. I had just finished backing out of the driveway when the front door flew open and out ran trey, Jenesa and Abgail.

"ERICA , WHAT THE HELL" I heard him yell at my car as I put the car into drive and headed down the street.

I glanced at them in the rearview mirror Abgail was handing him her keys and pulling him toward her car. I turned the corner then another to throw them off before heading to the motel.

A few months before our move I gave Kizle a necklace with a tracking device in it that was hooked up to my phone, the best thing I ever did since leaving their bastard of a man they consider father.

I was stupid not to get the police involved but my safety never came to my mind. I was a mama bear and no one was getting in the way of me and my cubs. I pulled up and sat in the parking lot starring at my ringing phone; Trey then Abgail were taking turns calling me. Turning it off, the phone part, I focused on the tracker. I took a deep breath as I got out of the car and headed for the door. It opened before I knocked.

(Door opens)

"Erica it took you longer than I thought" Jason said grabbing my arm pulling me in.

My eyes scanned the small room seeing The twins asleep on one of the beds. I pushed out of his arms and rushed over to them brushing their dark brown curls out of their faces. "Why would you do this to me" I asked him quietly not taking my eyes off my children.

He grabbed my arm dragging me into the bathroom and slammed me against the tile wall. The wind was knocked out of me and I saw double ex-husbands as I tried to catch my breath.

"You forced me to do this" I heard him say then felt his hand on my cheek and pain on my knees as I hit the floor hard. I locked my arms to my side so he wouldn't get a clear kick at my ribs or my stomach. but he sat down next to me. "You're coming back with me Erica . I'm your boyfriend not that cunt-like bitch" he said in barely a whisper.

I swallow blood again looking him straight in the eye "We are not together, Jason. You told me yourself . We are done. I'm no longer under your control or anyone else for that matter". I wait for another blow before I went on "The twins considers you as their father and I'm willing to let you be in their life's not mine".

"I called you last night and your boyfriend answered. I told him that you belong to me and no one else"

"I don't belong to you. You gave that right up when you started hitting me" I spat back.

Jason sat me up and put and arm around my shoulders I felt myself start to tremble. "You stayed though" he cupped my chin and made me look at him. "Why would you if you didn't love me...you still love me you came back to me".

"I came back for Them!" I said pointing to the twins. "You took them from me." I cried I couldn't believe how blind to the situation he was.

Jason stroked my cheek I was in a tremble fit "I'm not talking about now. You stayed Erica meaning you had no problem with how I acted all the years we were together. Why now" he asked.

I starred at him; he was right. Why had I stayed? I knew from the moment he had started I should have left. Hell I should have left when he started with the verbal abuse. But why...why had I stayed.

"I know why you stayed Erica ; you can't live without me. I will always be the one you love".

Blinking I snorted in his face "No Jason, just like I talked myself out of loving Trey; I can do the same for you." Jason's nostrils flared and I saw his fist clench as he pulled me tighter as I continued. "Because, I found someone that loves me, truly loves me; not wanting to control me" I brushed his hand away from my face. "I always knew he was there but I lost my way when I met you" I moved of his embrace and made my over to sit by the tub.

"Met me, huh" he gave me what I knew as his dangerous smile.

"Yes" I started back definitely "You were a mistake" I saw him glance at the toilet but I kept going "I was wrong to get involved with you, to talk myself out of love with the man I was supposed to be with..."

"So this bitch, he was your first"?

"Yes, I regret that I should have always been" I said quietly as I held myself thinking of Trey.

"I watched you have sex with him, Erica." My head shot up looking at him; he glanced at the toilet again before setting his devious brown eyes on me "He made you scream...you never screamed with me". I heart began to race as I scrambled to the door but Jason was on of me in a flash pinning me to the cold linoleum floor. He pressed my face into it; I could feel the cartilage in my nose breaking "Let's see if I can make you scream". I felt his hands roaming over my backside forcing my dress up and my panties down. My heart was crying wishing I wasn't so full of myself and had told someone...had told Trey what I was going to do. I felt his member at my opening and braced myself for what I was going to do.

It all happened in a five seconds. I slipped my hand into my bra and pulled out the razor blade I kept hidden. I turned around quickly throwing Jason off as I did slashing his face. Hearing his screams I made my way to my feet opening the bathroom door to Trey, Jersey , Jack, and two police officers making their way into the motel room. Abgail was taking The twins out.

"Trey" I heard myself whisper as he rushed and embraced me. The police officers hurried past into the bathroom.

Trey pulled back and held me in front of him. It was like the world stood still as he cupped my cheeks with both hands we starred for I don't know how long. It was almost like we traveled back in time when we had or mental conversations. I told him I was sorry that I had to do this by myself. He told me he understood but was still angry that I didn't include him.

I smiled up at him putting my hands over his; he returned the smile. Would you have let me go I asked. Trey shook his head. That's why, I needed to face and defeat my demons on my own.

"You still should have told me Erica , defeating demons or not" Trey whispered harshly.

"I know and I'm sorry. How did you find me"?

"I had Jersey install a GPS in your car. At first it looked like you were playing Grand Theft Auto" he laughed.

"I was trying to shake my Tail" I gigged stepping closer. "I'm glad you're here, Trey" I wrapped my arms around him hearing a 'pop'.

I turned around witnessing the police take down Jason who had a gun in his hand. He fell back into the dresser three bullet holes to his chest gushing forth with crimson liquid. A pain shot through me I felt as if a part of me was dying along with him. I watched as the light faded from his eyes but the pain didn't go away. In fact it grew stronger almost blinding me. I looked down and saw I was standing in my own pool of scarlet.