Highschool Tragedy

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Hey Alex,

Congratulations on your girlfriend. I'm happy you finally found the someone you've been looking for to fill in your void. i hope she treats you right. I'm doing okay if you're even wondering. But if we're still about the whole no lies between us thing, then I must admit, I've been better. I won't sit around and tell you that I'm fine with your newly found relationship, because I'm not, but there's nothing I can do to change the way things now so I'll sit back and put on my best act, after all it's best friends before anything else right? 

I would never in a hundred years try to ruin your happiness, and you know that. but for once I want to put myself first, make it easier for me to handle the pain and tell you that I still have feelings for you, and it hurts to see you with someone that isn't me. I saw your eyes light up when you spoke about her and it stings a little when you put your arm around her waist and pull her closer. I wish I was her. 

I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you lately. I know I've failed to reply to your snaps, I haven't called like I usually do so I want you to know that I'll need my time to heal. I'm sick thinking about you when I know you'll never be mine and these thoughts that cloud my mind aren't healthy. I heard you were asking about me, that glimmer of hope came back and died instantly when I recalled you have a girlfriend. I'll come around I promise, not that it really matters anyways. 

I won't be that bitch and come between you two, know that I'm your best friend before everything else. I'm happy as long as you are. I hope she knows that she's the luckiest girl to get a chance with you. 

I'm still learning how to forgive every part of me that loved you.

Until then, I wish you two the very best.

With love,

Kiiara