My Baby Girl! (Niall Horan)

Talking Again?

LEXI'S POV

I couldn't get to sleep last night so I put Alex to sleep and cleaned my house.  I still have about three hours before I'm supposed to officially wake up.  I decide to take a long shower, since Alex I've haven't really had the time to do that.  When I got out I looked at the clock, and instantly became a time nazi, while running around my room trying to get dressed.  I hear Alex crying and go to get her.  Then my doorbell rings.  I run downstairs with Alex on my hip and swing open the door.  "You better be glad it's just me or you would have been in trouble!" Kate says, and I look down.  I got the bottom of me dressed, but somehow missed a shirt.  So there I stand in pants and a bra, great.  Note my sarcasm.  I pull Kate in and shove Alex into her arms.  Then I run upstairs and change my mind about what I wanted to wear.  I choose a cute little white dress that has little pink flowers on it, add a light pink belt, and some black flats.  My dress comes down to about mid thigh, so I'm careful coming down the stairs.  I hop in my car and call Niall.   "Hello? Thidjns is Nialjk" I hear Niall tiredly say.  "Hey Niall, It's Lexi. Um I was just calling to tell you that I'm on my way over, so I'll see you in about twenty minutes." I say.  "Wha?" He asks. I giggle, he was never one for mornings.  "I'll bring food. I'm on my way over so we can talk." I say.  "Oh ok I'll get ready, and what type of food?"  he asks more aware.  "What do you want?" I ask him.  "Nandos." he says instantly says.  "Do they even sell breakfast?" I ask.  "I don't know, if they don't will you bring some  waffles." He says.  "Yeah I will, see you soon." I say laughing at him.  As expected, Nando's doesn't serve breakfast(And I don't know if they do or don't so...) so I go grab Niall some waffles.  I didn't get myself anthing because I don't think I can eat with my stomach doing flips, plus I need to get rid of this baby fat.  It's almost all gone.  After a few minutes I arive at Niall's flat.  I walk over to his flat and knock on the door.  It opens up and it's not who I expected.  "Oh sorry, wrong room." I quickly say and start turning away.  My arm was grabbed and I was pushed up against a wall.  "Listen here.  You will talk to Niall, and you will tell him the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Do you understand me? He can't handle another heartbreak like the one you gave him.  After this you will leave him alone and get out of his life."  Zayn says and releases me.  Tears form in my eyes, and I nod quickly.  He scares me and I start shaking.  The bad thing about this is that I have panic attacks, so I'm now hyperventilating and shying away from Zayn.  I hear a door open and someone rushes to my side.  "Hey! Look at me, ok? You're fine, just breath. I'm right here with you.  I'm not going anywhere." I hear the only person I need, Niall.  He was the one who calmed me down when I had an attack before we broke up.  After a while I calm down and look up at him.  "Thanks." I say looking down ashamed.  "No poblem, and it's nothing to be ashamed of.  You all better now?" Niall asks again.  I nod and he helps me stand up.  I see Zayn in the corner of my eye and huddle further into Niall.  "What's wrong?" Niall asks looking around.  I shake my head and we continue walking.  I sit down on Niall's bed and he sits across from me.  "So..... Listen I'm sorry that I hurt you, but trust me it's something I live with everyday.  All of that pain I put you through makes me want to take it all away, but I can't.  I have my reasons for what I did.  I'm not proud of myself, and iI never will be.  I'm sorry." I say.  "Can you tell me your reasons? Tell me what I did wrong?  Tell me why you had to go?" He asks tearing up.  I can't do this, if he cries, I'm just going to feel worse.  "You didn't do anything wrong, Niall. You did everything right, you did everything perfectly and I was scared of your reaction.  I'm not ready to tell you why I had to leave, but maybe I will someday, if Zayn lets me." I say.  "What do you mean 'if Zayn lets you'?"  He asks.  Oops, that wasn't supposed to slip out.  "He kinda threatened me, which caused my attack, but it's no big deal."I say and look down.  "What did he say?" Niall growls.  I tell him and Niall jumps of the bed.  I run after him.  I jump in front of him, "No Niall please." I plead.  He pushes past me and walks over to I assume Zayn's flat.  "ZAYN! GET OUT HERE!" Niall yells.  I flinch back and watch as Zayn opens the door, looks at me, then back to Niall.  "If you ever threaten her again I swear I will punch you so hard you will need a hospital." Niall threatens.  My eyes go wide, and I walk up to Niall.  "I don't think thats necessary.  Your friends, you can work something out. Please Niall done do anything stupid." I plead and try to push Niall back to his flat.  He allows me to push him back and we walk back to Niall's in quiet.   "I'm sorry for him, he's just a jerk." Niall says.  "So...?" I say trying to change the subject.  "So, who's the father of Alex?" Niall asks.  No not this subject, change it back. Change it back!  "I'd rather not say." I say quietly.  "Well he deserves nothing if he left you.  I wish he were here so I could knock some sense into him." Niall says "Don't. It's not his fault." I say sernly.  "Why are you defending him?  How could it not be his fault?" Niall asks.  "He didn't know, but it was better that way." I say and look at my hands.  If you only knew that you were her father, you'd understand.   "I'm sorry, I'll always be there for you, you know that right?"  "Yeah I do." I say. I then look at the time. "Crap, I'm sorry Niall but I have to go.  Alex is waiting for me, and Kate has to go to work." I say gathering my things.  "Can I meet her?" He asks.  "Sure, You can come over to my house in an hour.  I'll get her ready and give you a call." I say and leave Niall's flat.  "Hey can I bring the rest of the boys" he asks.  I nod and hop into my Jeep.  I start the drive back home.  When I get there I unlock the doors and step inside.  "Oh My Gosh.  It looks like a tornado tore through my house. What did you two do?" I ask.  We made cookies, and played with some toys.  I'm sorry I can stay and help clean up. "Kate offered.  "No you have to work and I'm having company in an hour." I say and sigh.  She apologizes once more then I shove her out the door.  I pick Alex up and say,"My poor baby, you've made a mess all over."  "Mommy I has fum wiff auntie Kat" she replies.   I smile and ask her to help put her toys away.  "Can we make cupcakes?" She asks.  Now he only bad thing is that when she beggs for something as sweetly as that I can't say no.  I nod and pull her into the kitchen.  I set her on the counter, then get the supplies.  Bad move mom.  As soon as I put the flour down it was all over us.  "Alexandra Horan. What did you do?" I ask trying to fix the mess on the counter.  "Haha, mommy you awl messy." Alex laughs and I laugh back until she takes more flour and trows it in the air above us.  "Now Alex who do you think is gonna be able to clean the cieling?" I ask knowing I wouldn't be able to reach it.  She shrugs and laughs throwing more flour.  The doorbell rings.  Crap! that means the boys are here, and I'm currently covered in flour with a mess in the livingroom.  I run to the door and open it with Alex resting on my hip.  "Welcome to my home... Sorry for the mess, it was clean, but my babysitter and daughter decided to make that mess.  We are making cupcakes in the kitchen. Please come in." I say then run back to the kitchen.  "Listen Alex.  Daddy is here, but he doesn't know who you are, so you're going to have to call him Niall. Ok? Do you understand Mommy?" I say.  She nods and says "Yes mommy I understand."  I smile and start cleaning flour off the kitchen.  This will be interesting.