Loosing Everything in Six Months

Chapter eight: Family

My life wouldn't be the same way if it weren't for my family. Your family shapes who you are as a person and it shows. Not just personality wise, but also genetically.

Yes, I am more like my father. Physically and genetically, I look like that side of the family and I also act like them. I am a hothead that has a fire-like ambition. My sister is more like my mother's side, she is quiet and artistic. We are polar opposites, though we balance each other out. Then, it happened.

My dad left us, he didn't tell me when he left. He just left. After he left my mother said, "No matter what, you, your sister and I are a family and families don't just walk out on each other. No matter what your dad says." That was two days after I tried to live with my dad.

I wasn't trying to leave, as first mentioned I wasn't leaving my family. I just needed a break from them, I felt like I was getting blamed for shit I can't control, but we already covered that.

To me, family isn't always genetics. Family is a group of people in which you place your trust. These people don't leave you, how contradictory, I know. Once again, my mother took it out of context.

People may say, "home is where the heart is." Let me ask, if your heart is with someone that doesn't want it, then is it home? Is it home when your 'home' is running away from you? So answer my question, if home is where your heart is then why my 'home' throw my heart around?

Family is a relationship concept made by people who were searching for labels, people who you are genetically bound with are your family. My description previously given is not a family, where my heart is, that's not my home. My family is a group of people in which I was born into. My genetics make me erratically angry, I hate the fact that they are my real family.

You can't change your family, you're stuck with what you've got. No matter how much you want to change your family it's practically impossible; though there are exceptions. Like family by marriage and family by adoption, but the people you call family may not be 'your family'.

I completely understand that my close friends are not family to me, I accepted that a long time ago.