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'the pain of the past' (4)

Still Hee-young P.O.V

I had explained to my sister what happened that night and we never spoke of it again.

A few months have passed and my sister avoided me the whole time.

She would always glare at me and she would often leave the dinning room during dinner saying that she had no appetite.

I know what I did was wrong, but I really didn't know how to tell my parents or discuss it with my sister about this.

I've lost my appetite as well, but I continued eating anyway because I didn't want my parents to know that I that something was wrong.

I'm a coward, I know.

My sister was so angry that she told the whole school about what I and Seowoon did.

I lost my close friends, I lost the trust of others and gained hate from everyone.

The only good thing is that the teachers and the principal doesn't know about this.

I just hope I can have the courage to say it to my parents or live with the guilt inside of me.

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17 year old Hee-young P.O.V

After 7 months of guilt and shame that I had hid from my parents, I decided to finally tell them.

During dinner while we were eating, I placed my fork down and cleared my throat.

"I have something to confess." I said in confidence.

I had prepared for this moment for a long time.

"What is it dear?" Eomma asked.

"I'm leaving." my sister wanted to flee from the dinning table but I grabbed her wrist before she could go.

"No, I want you to hear this too."

"Hee-young, don't force your sister to stay." Appa started to get angry.

"I need everyone to listen, please."

Hee-young thought for awhile and decided to sit back down.

"Ah.. I have done something very wrong and I have kept the guilt in be for quite a long time.." I took a deep breath.

".. I'm the reason why Unnie broke up with Seowoon."

"Hwa-young said that they broke up because they weren't very interested in keeping the relationship. Why does this involve you?" Appa asked.

I bit my bottom lip.

"I-I.. Kissed Seowoon when unnie went out to by drinks." I began to tear up.

"WHAT!?" Appa slammed the table in anger.

"YOU DID WHAT!? YOU'RE SUCH A FILTHY GOOD-FOR-NOTHING DAUGHTER THAT RUINED MY OTHER DAUGHTER'S RELATIONSHIP, HOW DARE YOU DO SUCH A THING!? "

In the corner of eye, I could see unnie sneering.

I deserve this..

"GO TO YOUR ROOM AND NEVER COME OUT!"

I quickly went to my room and cried.

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A few days later..

"Darling I know you're being punished but don't lock yourself any longer, please. You need to eat." I could hear Eomma knocking the door non-stop and her voice was shaky, I could tell that she was about to cry.

"I deserve this, go away." I said in a cold voice, but inside I was breaking apart.

"D-darling, Hee-young come out.. Please?"

"let her be." Appa's booming voice said.

"B-but.."

"She deserves every bad treatment she's getting , That witch doesn't even deserve to live." Unnie said in a spiteful way.

"Hwa-young! What you said is NOT acceptable!! Say sorry now!" Eomma raised her voice.

"NO." I could hear Hwa-young slaming her door.

"Why are kids so rebellious.." Eomma sighed.

"They're Teens, it's normal."

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18 year old Hee-young P.O.V

We've resolved all the issues between each other.

But me and my sister still won't talk to each other.

She hasn't actually forgave me yet even though it had been 2 years since the accident.

She does hold a very long grudge against me.

And because of this she was never able to find anyone who interest her.

Even on Valentine's Day, all the boys would come running to her but she'll always reject every gift.

I had no friends, only enemys.

I did make friends online to keep me going, I enjoy talking to them through text and for me that's enough.

I haven't resolved anything with Seowoon since that day.

Because of that day, I thought of him as a cheater and a liar.

A jerk who kissed his girlfriend's sister.

I know it's my fault too so I don't hate him that much as unnie does.

I would see him sometimes in the cafeteria, alone without any friends.

He is very handsome, but because of the kiss he's popularity became really low and nobody wanted to hang out with him, only those crazy bitches who just want to go out with someone handsome.

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19 year old Hee-young P.O.V

It's my birthday today..

But since the day I had spilled the beans to my parents, I celebrated with myself and Eomma secretly since we didn't want Appa and unnie to get angry over such a small thing.

"..saeng-il chukahamnida~" Me and Eomma sang.

I wished for me and my sister to make up and for the rest of my life to be happy again like how I wish for every year.

I opened my eyes and blew out the candles.

Eomma and I clapped and ate the cake.

"I love you very much, you know?" Eomma suddenly say.

"Of course I know. You're the only person who celebrates with me and the only person who shows me love. I love you too."

We smiled and hugged each other.

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End-year 19 year old Hee-young P.O.V

I was doing my end-year homework at night when suddenly I got a phone call.

Unknown number

I wonder who it is..

"Yeoboseyo?"

"Hee-young, I know it's been a while but can you meet me somewhere near your house?"

"...S-Seowoon.?"

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The next 'pain of the past' chap is the last one folks.

;)