I'm Innocent (On Hold)

14. The Ex

It's been one week and now I could actually feel the tension which has grown up to the size of the elephant, it's not that I couldn't feel it earlier but I ignored it Shanaya is avoiding me or more like not talking to me like she used to a week ago and whenever I tried to kill the silence between us she would only answer in mono syllable or just hum.

It was really frustrating at first but now I actually felt like I should talk to her. She has stopped eating lunch at the college cafeteria and also would not go to the mess with me for dinner she started going to the college earlier than me and when I asked her she simply said " just working on my assignments alone... you know I didn't get a partner. It was too late everybody paired up".

I think she was really sensitive because who would react this way, just because I didn't go for shopping with her , like really.. so I went to shanaya's room and knocked, there was silence of few seconds then a calm voice said " come in".

As I entered I checked out her room it was a mess as usual and she was having a pizza and watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. she uprighted herself and sat straight while dusting away her top like I was a guest in front of whom she has to behave properly. I cleared a spot on her bed as there were lots of clothes lying around on it.

"Sorry for that"

I frowned at her like really that's how she would talk to me now.

"what happened to you?"

"nothing" she said instantly.

I took a deep breath and said" look I am sorry okay, I didn't know what I have done that you are behaving this way but whatever it is I am sorry".

"one should not apologize for things that they don't know about and there is nothing to apologize" she smiled and for the first time I realized what an eccedentesiast looks like.

I realized that asking will not help this situation.

" Babe please"

"what? and don't call me that"

"what... babe? Why?"

" cuz my best friend used to call me that."

Best friend... like seriously...

" so I am not your best friend now?"

" ask yourself what does a best friend do..."

She finally looked towards me and took a deep breath and tried to speak but couldn't. I frowned not knowing what the hell is going on.

"... I guess last time I checked best friend meant a person that helps you, support you and give their shoulder to cry on when you are feeling alone or scared." A tear slide down her right cheek she wiped it quickly.

"Shanaya I didn't know it was this serious. I thought that it's just about shopping and party... I am really sorry" I hold her hands .

She shook her head and smiled " that's okay actually you know I expect too much even god can't help it and we are just naïve human beings born to be selfish".

I didn't know what to say to that but guess I didn't have to because she continued.

" I somehow knew that this day will come when you will leave me just like my mom, dad and Rahul. I don't know why even after all these times I still hoped for a true friend. I wish I could give away all this money and clothes and make-up and get a person who can understand me. You know what it really is not your problem, you were really good and everybody has their own limit of dealing with someone's issue."

"I don't know..."

"you don't have to say anything really it's not your fault that you want to be friends with someone who is cool or tries to be cool even if they are lying on your face cuz I know how fun it is to be with opposite sex and spending your days. I'm just an annoying friend and I have pushed you so far away that I can't even ask you for help when I need it the most. Actually I think if you were like me then I would have walked away too and not helped you at all with the scholarship thing" she took a deep breath and smiled at me.