You Feel Like Home

eighteen

millie | ryder

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“is that what those two am suicide calls felt like? like there’s a chance you may never talk to the one person you care about ever again?”

“ry, i—”

“i wanted to drink so bad. so, so bad. to just forget. to pretend you had never called in the first place for just a few hours.”

“i—”

“but then i thought, ‘she’s going to need me sober when she finally gets her head screwed on right’.”

“i’m sorry.”

“why would you do that? how could you say that?”

“yesterday was the anniversary.”

“anniversary?”

“of my mother's death.”

“i’m never going to leave you.”

“things won’t go bad unless i let them.”

“right.”

“okay.”