Germ(Yuki X Kyo)

Can't stop

      No matter what I do I can't make someone who hates me love me. No matter how many times I tell myself this I can't believe it. But now I don't have to believe it, because the person who hates me loves me. Human emotions are complex and hard to understand. So hard to understand that sometimes you can't even understand yourself, sometimes you'll thinking you figured out how you'll feel but then someone will do something that confuses you.

After Yuki had tried to comfort me, I've stopped trying to understand and have become impulsive. If I can't understand the way I feel about him I have no reason to think about what to do next.

"I started to think you weren't coming to eat!" Tohru smiles while setting my meal down.

    I sit down and thank her, as I slowly gulp down a chunk of rice I glance toward Yuki. Tohru and him seemed to be having a cheerful conversation, so I decided to bless them and keep my explosive personality out of it. Though I kept looking back and forth between his smile, and her small giggles. Jealous, here I am getting jealous because a really pretty girl is talking to a guy.

Tohru. Tohru is the person I should be in love with. The person that's giving me butterflies, and petting me as I pur. The person I snuggle with to get rid of my anger. But no, Tohru could never be that person as much as I want her to be. She can't. It has to be Yuki. But why Yuki. Why do I have to long for the feeling of him giving me small butterfly kisses along my jaw, and twisting my orange fiery hair.

"Kyo is extra pouty today" the dumb dog says smirking

I stand up and make sure to leave a smart ass comment as well "and you're extra annoying today"

Somehow even after taking such a long nap I retreat back to my bed. But is yes but instead of sleeping I lay there tired, yearning for someone to cuddle. The a millionth yawn escapes my throat, and tears swell in my eyes from it. Great more tears. Then again I have a lot of luck with crying myself to sleep. Finally throughout the night I figured I'd just cuddle my pillow, it worked fine but when I awoke in the morning I was horrible uncomfortable.

       I hear Tohru yell something about breakfast, but I ignore her and try to salvage as much rest as I can get.  A couple of minutes later Yuki busts in my room.

    "You can't just barge in here!"I yawn

        Yuki gives me a rather cold stare, "Why can't I?"

     He didn't actually ask the right? Ever hear of privacy, because I'd like that in my life.

       "What if I was naked?"

        "We're both guys, it wouldn't matter" Yuki replies swiftly

        This reply hurt unexpectedly, even though he was right. It's normal for guys to be comfortable with their bodies around other guys. Except instead of reacting like a normal person and just throwing something at him. I clench the sheets, angrily start crying.Not your normal cry, but hardcore sobbing. I'm turning into a hormonal middle school girl. Yuki freaks out once again.

         "Sorry! Im sorry!" His reaction is different, and by now he's realized I'll start crying over anything he says to me.

         He starts to awkwardly pet my head, while also trying to keep up with wiping my tears. Finally my emotions go back to normal. It's like a strange switch, that only Yuki can flip on or off.

          "Sorry...I-I didn't mean to cry" I sniffle "I just can't figure out what's wrong with me"

           Yuki pats my head again "After all of that it might be good that you go eat, to energize yourself"

           I nod extremely embarrassed about sobbing my eyes out in front of him for the third time. After eating a little bit of the food given to me, I go and bathe hoping to cool my head. Which I don't think helped much.

        I decide to spend my Saturday climbing trees, and collecting the all bugs and germs the forest has to offer. In hopes of developing a sickness to cure harsh emotions. Finally I take a break and chill on a tree branch. I've always been overly emotional, but sobbing uncontrollably is new to me. I had to admit defeat anyways, I find Yuki irresistible. His spunky gray hair goes perfectly with is delicate features, and his eyes are skies to vanish in.

         I guess it really is possible that I like Yuki.

         Suddenly, I hear a gasp. I look down to see Tohru starring at me with wide eyes.

          "What?" I ask her with a rude tone

         "Kyo, do you actually like Yuki?"

         Didn't expect that one, "I said that out loud?"

         Tohru nods, I climb down from my tree to talk to her face to face.

         "Please don't tell him!"I plead placing my hands on her shoulders.

          "Don't worry I wasn't planning on it!" She frantically waves her hands in front of her.

          Finally dinner came, and it was like I had the biggest elephant standing behind me. Everyone was quiet except for Tohru, who wasn't even saying anything. She was just looking at me while giggling, like she was plotting evil. ThenYuki just sat there giving me strange looks, expecting me to explain her strange behavior. Which really wasn't that strange apparently, because the idiot dog was unbothered while scarfing down all of his food.

         I stand up, and excuse myself from the table which shocks everyone. I change into my pajamas, and retreat into my bed. This time I fall asleep easily do from the stress of today.

          My eyes drift open, and I see Yuki sitting in the darkness next to my bed. He's petting me again, and I'm purring just like before.

         "What are you doing?" I ask groggily

         "It pains me to admit that I've been longing for the comfort of a cats fur, I wonder why" Yuki answers honestly, never making eye contact with me and just stares out the window.

          "It's because you can feel a cats affection, sometimes you become attached"

         Yuki turns to me finally making eye contact, "And the other times?"

I'm sorry for not posting in a while, I had finally over come my art block and couldn't stop drawing. Not to mention my mom remarried.