Germ(Yuki X Kyo)

Crush

The next morning I stubbornly push Tohru's food away from me.

"I-I'm heading off"I shout and made sure to slam the door behind me.

               On the way to school the only thing on my mind was Yuki, the day head finally came when I had believed one of his apologies. I haven't really experienced any human to human contact, and it was weird to have such a meaningful conversation. It was like most I had before, those were just a me being angry and shouting at someone. You can't even call that a conversation!

     My face flushes when I think back to our hug, I don't think I've ever hugged Yuki before either. Nor have I experienced such a awkward meeting. Yuki was never anymore than a strong fighter who was to over protective of himself, it was different to hear him spilling such conserved information.

            Not to mention my embarrassing speech. I open the classroom door my face beet red, and go to my usual seat only to space my head down in the cool desk hoping my face would go back to normal. Though it didn't, the heat from my face carried to the desk only for my face to heat more.

I suddenly feel a hand on my back I turn to look at who dared to touch me, and I see Tohru smiling at me.

"Are you feeling unwell today Kyo?"she asks in that sweet tone of hers.

"I-I'm fine"I say averting my eyes back to my desk.

Tohru smiles again"I just wanted to make sure."

Why doesn't Tohru make me feel fuzzy? She's kind, pretty, and she even wants her zodiac to be the cat. But instead I got some pretty boy heart throb, giving me butterflies when he turns to me. I let out a grumbling noise.

I lean back in my chair and cross my arms, and when I tilt my head back I see Yuki staring at me.

"Someone's grumpy"Yuki says turning the other direction.

My face drops, my anger almost vanished. My body flips forward and I cover my face with my hands. I've never felt like such a cry baby until now. Here I am trying to keep from crying in front of everyone, and just because some dumb rat made a smart ass retort to me.

Even though I give my best efforts not to, I start sniffing trying to hold back tears that were already pouring from my eyes.

"K-Kyo?!"I hear Yuki's shocked voice from behind me, and he rests a hand on my shoulder.

"Why are you crying?"he asks softly.

My anger seems to boil back up and overflows. I smack his hand off of me.

"I-I'm not!"

I jump out my chair and while tears from my cheeks, Tohru suddenly puts a hand on my shoulder.

"Don't touch me!"I shout at her smacking her as well.

I sniff again and wrap my arms around myself. "I-I just don't understand"

Yuki tilts his head"What don't you understand?"

I finally look him directly in the eye, "I don't understand why you have to act so nice to me, and make me feel like you don't me want to ever leave. But it's all just an act! I'm just a boulder blocking your path."

I've never been so embarrassed before. I felt like I had just told him to make out with me.

"Kyo, I've never said anything about you being in my way I-"

I slap him across the face"Shut up!"

My tears seem to be overflowing just as much as my anger.

I turn around so Yuki can't see me cry, forgetting Tohru and everybody else was there. Tohru holds my face, and rubs away the tears staining my face.

"I think you should go home" Tohru says as she pets my head.

"Funny, I was thinking the same thing" I chuckle morbidly and walk out of the classroom.

Once I got home I sat down on my bed. Covering my face in embarrassment I let out a long sigh. How did I get so worked up over something so stupid, it's not like Yuki did anything extreme. I'm acting like a middle school who just realized who their first crush was. Except that I'm a boy, and my crush is a boy.

There it was, the fuel to my anger. I'm scared. I'm scared that Yuki will think I'm disgusting, and if I'm disgusting wouldn't he resent me more? Except he wouldn't be the only one, Tohru two. She's so sweet and tries her best to make me feel better, but she would never do that if she knew that I harbored such disgusting feelings towards another man. Same sex relationships are disgusting, it's supposed to be a girl and a boy hasn't it always been. But the deeper you go into that how am I supposed to like a girl? Imagine never being able to hug the person you love just because they're the opposite gender. All of my problems would be solved if I were to love a guy, but that's disgusting.

My angered boils more as I hold my head, tears start to swell up as well. Soon enough I'm wrapped in my blanket and sobbing, I'm absolutely worthless. I'm disgusting. Before I had realized I had fallen asleep.

When I awake it was evening already and there was someone sitting next to me. I turn my head expecting to see Tohru, but there was Yuki who seemed so fixated on playing with my hair that always seemed to stick up every which way. Embarrassingly I felt my gut tingle with a familiar sensation, a sudden purr emits from my throat. My face flushes but Yuki goes unbothered.

"Does it feel good Kyo?" Yuki questions softly.

I nod my head, and try to relax a bit. My purring seems to get louder and louder, the more longer he pets me. His hand suddenly leaves my head leaving it tingly. I reach back for his hand yearning for the previous sensation.

"Cats are very needy, though they don't need much to survive" he whispers. "They're stubborn, but some how so many people love them. Because their cuteness is unbearable."

Yuki suddenly leans down and gives me a small peck on the forehead. "Tohru is almost done with dinner"