Guilty Pleasures | Destiel AU

Chapter Four

Dean's POV

On most occasions I despised silence however in this instance, it allowed me muster up my thoughts coherently. I continued to drive at a steady speed, my thoughts drifting back to Castiel.

I was never one for superstition, but when you meet a stranger twice by coincidence, it must be fate. I hope I didn't come off as a needy bitch asking for his number. How could I be sure that I was going to be granted a third encounter. I simply couldn't let him leave without any insurance.

I parked the Impala under a willow tree with the branches dangling so low, they brushed the roof of the car. The tree provided shade, protecting the leather seats against the burning radiation.

Jess had asked me to come by after an hour. Jess was a lovely girl. She influenced Sammy to become a better man and I was sincerely happy for them. Of course I would never state it in that context, I'm not one for chick flick moments. Sam knew anyway. Sometimes we didn't require words to understand each other.

I clenched my right hand and knocked on the wooden door with my knuckles. I waited patiently for a response. Shortly, Sam opened the door wide and invited me into the house.

I took a step forward and entered the house. I approached Sam and ruffled my fingers through his long hair, leaving its appearance to resemble a bird's nest.

"Dean quit doing that!"

I laughed, waking towards Jess. I pecked her on the cheek and greeted them.

"Jess, Sammy. Betta' have a pretty good reason for disrupting me from my tight schedule." I said with a smirk.

"Tight schedule..."

I shot daggers at Sam with my eyes.

"Shut up Sammy"

"It's Sam." Sam said curtly, gritting his teeth.

Jess found the overall situation funny. She giggled hysterically, covering her mouth with her hand.

Once maintaining steady a breathing pace, Jess finally spoke. "Sam and I have something we wanted to let you know." She ushered Sam to continue the statement.

"So I've been sixteen for a while now, Jess and I decided that we should move in together. I know we're still young but we were introduced to everything at a young age. Her parents own a small loft not far from here. I figured it's a about time I got out of your hair."

I swallowed a gulp that was held in my dry throat. I had always been so close with Sammy; as brothers but also in proximity. There had never been a time that I was not constantly looking out for him. I should have felt thrilled at the chance to posses my own space and bedroom, but there was a slight feeling of loss that I couldn't seem to brush off.

"Finally!" I laughed as I slapped Sam's back.

They grinned widely at me, then embraced me in a hug.

"Guys I know I'm adorable but let's tone down the chick flick moment."

We all burst into laughter. At that moment of time, I was perfectly content.

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Castiel's POV

I drove fast above the speed limits and ignored the signs. I could feel the beast inside of me awakening. I needed to be alone. I continued to drive to my choice of destination. The lake.

I exited the car in a rush. I bent over, placing my hands on my knees, whilst breathing rapidly. I inhaled and exhaled large amounts of air, until my heart was beating steadily.

I waked towards the bench that faced the serene water. The water was calm and the horizon reflected onto it, creating a pink illusion. I dazed across the distance, admiring its delicate beauty.

The lake was almost as beautiful as Dean. I was honored to ever have laid my eyes upon such a beautiful soul. He was much too wonderful to destroy. I was frightened that if I became too close, he would end up dead but still I must try. I didn't even know those other people, let alone their names. I had to stop assuming the worst possible outcomes with Dean.

I couldn't live like this forever. One day I must allow myself to become acquainted to someone and Dean could be the perfect beginning for me.

I continued to gaze upon the horizon, as I concluded to a decision. I would get to know Dean. Not only would the relationship benefit me but also would grant him a friend.

I pulled out my phone and the crumpled receipt. I dialed the digits into the keypad, my finger hovering above the 'call' button. Maybe I should wait until I receive a call from him. I mean he did seem quite keen. No Castiel, quit behaving like a coward.

Before granting myself anymore time to escape the situation, I pressed 'call'. Oh no. I nervously listened to the dialing audio that played through the speakers. In seconds the audio was corrupted by a voice.

"Hello?"

I felt the loss of my voice. I needed to speak soon, otherwise he would hang up.

"Hi. It's Castiel."

I desperately hoped that my voice did not come out as a feminine squeak to his ears.

"Oh hey Cas. I was just about to call you! What's up?"

"Nothing of import. How are you Dean?"

I heard a small laugh through the receiver. Why was he laughing? I couldn't help but feel insecure.

"I'm fine Cas, how are you?"

"I'm good. Listen Dean, I know that my previous impressions may have come off a little enigma and distant, but I assure you that was simply my tiredness. If you would let me, I'd like to show you a different side of me. The better side of me."

I sincerely hoped that Dean would accept my request. He seemed like a wonderful guy and it would be a shame to let him pass by, with the knowledge that I held the opportunity and disposed of it.

"It's great to hear that Cas, and you never came off as that person towards me, although you are different. Don't worry though, it's not the bad type of different. I like it."

My cheeks stretched into a wide grin. Dean's sincere words caused my heart to pound faster than I had ever witnessed. I hoped that along the opposite end of the call, Dean held a genuine smile too.

"Thank you Dean. Can we possibly meet up tomorrow?"

"Sure Cas, I'd love that. Give me your address and I'll pick you up?"

My house contained too much evidence that may result with me in jail. Not that I did not deserve it. I couldn't risk the chance of exposure. I had no choice, but to lie.

"I have some business to attend to in town, so maybe you could pick me up at 5:30 in the central park?"

I prayed that Dean did not insist on the topic of my house. Hopefully my lying skills were as believable as I assumed they were.

"Alright Cas. I'll see you then."

"Great. Good bye Dean."

"Adios Castiel."