The Inevitable Heartbreak of a Fangirl

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Chapter 7
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I have always faced a challenge everytime I arrange plans with people, and that is figuring out what to wear. No one, not even the countless magazines I've bought and re-read over the years could have prepared me from a date with one of my favorite people in the world.
And so, I have turned to my dearest friend to help me with my recurring struggles.

"What do you think of this one?" I hold up a nice outfit. I turn to Hanna for the billionth time mixing and matching outfits that one could deem fit for tonight's events.

When I told her the story of how I became friends with the boys she yelled at me for, and I quote, "fucking with her emotions now hang up the phone." And when she realized I wasn't joking, she ran, yes ran, to my house in nothing but her pajamas and a pair of slippers and proceeded to attack me from my doorstep then hugged the soul right out of me for finally making more friends regardless of who they were.

And I didn't know if I was going to be offended or relieved that she's this happy for me.

After finally picking a simple maroon shirt paired with a full denim jumper we started cleaning uo the mess we made in the room.

Picking up the last piece of clothing off the floor, we heard the sound of the doorbell signalling someone at the door.

I glanced at my watch, 4:50pm.

Hanna looks at me, "He's here?" I shrug in confusion.

Okay, that can't possibly be him.
We agreed to meet at the cafè. I opened the door to a smiling Yoongi and his bodyguard at the back, my eyes widened in surprise, "Yoongi!"

He laughs at my expression and coughs, "Hey, so I know we were supposed to meet at the cafe but something came up and we only have three hours to hang out then I have to head back to practice." He smiles shyly.

Oh.

I nod, "Yeah, it's fine if we cancel for today maybe next week?" I ask him with a smile. Damn, I was really excited to spend time with-

Yoongi suddenly coughs violently while waving his hand wildly, "N-no, no!" He sputtered, "I was just thinking maybe we could just hang out at my studio since it's closer to the dorm."

Holy fuckballs, he's inviting me to his studio... his studio, where he creates such beautiful melodies and inspirational lyrics... and he wants to hang out there.

My life is going great right now.

Not a subtle flex at all.

I choke out an 'okay' then he guides me to his car then we head off to their building.

I was looking out the window when a thought hit me like a train, how on earth did my life manage to go from regular routines to casual dates with, i don't know, my fucking idol?

I must've been too expressive when Yoongi taps my arm and asks if I'm okay, I smile at him, "Oh, I was just thinking how the fuck did I get here."

His eyes widen, clearly surprised by my blunt answer, "I'm sorry?" He looked offended.

Oh my go- "No! No! Not like that! Oh god, I meant like when I used to be just a huge fan to now being your... friend."

He laughs then he nodded, "Yeah, you're right. It's been what? Less than a month now? Maybe two weeks?" He chuckled.

I laugh too, "Right, seems so long ago though."

We both smile at each other when he hands me a bottle of water and lets out a chuckle.

I look at him in confusion, "What?"

He smiles, "Oh nothing, I just remembered one of your notes, you know, from the box that you gave me when you flat-out told me you loved me?"

I choked,"Son of a bitch I completely forgot about that, don't even bring that up. I can't believe I did that!" I let out as I out my hands over my face.

We both laugh and he tells me a story about one of my notes, "You know, when I read that note that you wrote a few years ago during our 2016 tour, I gotta say, it brought back so many memories." I look at him in interest as he continues, "Our one goal was to be able to create good music that could inspire and express our love towards our fans and show our passions and dreams through our music. And I remember feeling like we finally achieved a part of that when we won awards at music shows and our first daesang. I remember one distinct line that I read from that note and it was, 'you and the members made me realize that my life is more than what others and I perceive, I have set my own limits but I know that I can do so much more as long as I want it bad enough"

I stare at him in shock, "Wow, word per word huh?" I smile and reach for another sip of water.

He reaches for something under the seat, revealing an extremely familiar box and placed it on his lap.

Is that my box of notes?

"You brought it?"

He smiles opens it and takes out a small envelope as he pulls out its contents which was one of my notes. "I never leave home without it" and hands me the short letter.

"Why are you giving me this? Oh no, were you creeped out? I swe-" I start to panic in confusion.

He gently places his hand on top of mine which did nothing to calm my racing heart by the way, and chuckles, "Lana, calm down. I just wanted to give it back to you because now, you'll have a small souvenir to remember from a time when you realized something important about yourself. I'm glad that our music helped you unlock a piece of yourself."

I smile at him as I start calming down.

"But I am still keeping the box by the way, you're never getting this back" He adds, before closing the box and putting it back under the seat.

I roll my eyes as I let out a laugh, "Immediately ruined the moment you idiot", lightly punching his arm.

"Wow, the thanks I get." He says as he dramatically clutches his arm as he snickers, "Hey, we're here."

I look out the window as we pull up to a parking slot.

"Damn, that's a nice building." I say as Yoongi removes his seatbelt and holds out his hand to me, "Let's go?"

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After how many months I finally opened up wattpad again 😂

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I haven't been able to open this app after a long time because of the excessive amount of school work BUT, classes are over and now I have some time on my hands.

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