Reflection

Never Have I Ever

Never have I ever gotten so close to someone so quickly,

Never have I ever loved a friend so sincerely,

Never have I ever had someone hold onto me for this long,

Never have I ever met someone this strong.

Never have I ever had someone melt down my metal shield,

Never have I ever to a friend, had my deepest secrets revealed,

And I know sometimes I may get too moody and too upset,

I'll try not to see your other friends as potential threats.

I may not tell you what's wrong the first time you ask,

That's because when I'm around you, there is no mask.

By that I mean I can't lie when it comes to you,

I couldn't pretend I'm okay when I'm actually feeling blue.

Like you said when something's wrong, I smile at the rest of the world,

Because only you Rimsha, know that I'm not such a brave girl.

All my life I've had to keep knocking on closed doors,

I know you have burdens and I didn't want to become one of yours.

And when I realize those doors won't open, I've learnt to walk away,

But I didn't notice that it also takes a lot of patience to stay.

Now I realize I've been the reason why the doors stay locked,

But I let you in even if it's been ages since you've knocked.

I just thought this time I'd opened the door a little too late.

That you'd given up and left because you were too impatient to wait.

But whenever I open the door to tell you why I'm so sad,

You're always there and for that, I'm so glad.

See, I never told you this but I feel like you can have me easily replaced,

Trying not to lose you is the greatest battle I've had to face.

And I try to be the best friend I could ever possibly be

Because no one else in the world could mean this much to me.

I admit there are times I get hurt and often feel left out,

But I wouldn't hesitate to fight if it's you it's about.

And if this poem had been written on paper, some parts would be wet.

I'll try my best not to make your letter be something you'll regret.

I've learnt the hard way not to depend on anyone too much,

I keep trying to distance myself but you keep your clutch.

If I ever do, I know I'm going to go back to being cold and mean,

Just promise me this will be the only thing you won't let me succeed.

I'm sorry I won't always be the most cheerful person you know,

I just hope that that won't be a reason for you to let go.

And I'm sorry if I might not be the funniest person out there,

But making you laugh and smile will never be rare.

And I'm sorry if I'm not the happiest person to brighten up your day,

But I'll try to change it if it ever becomes grey.

Writing this has made me realize friendships like ours are few,

Because never have I ever had such an amazing bestfriend like you.