Addicted to Mr Right

Pushing To Far

I decided to make pasta and also got out a bottle of wine, I felt like I would probably need a drink.

Hugh hade made hints about his past like the thing with hide and seek and needing a therapist and also saying he was as fucked up as me but he had never actually said why, I think enough time has past between us and to move on we need to know all the good and ugly about each of our lives!

Hugh came around 7pm, I think he was stalling a little, I knew he didn't want to tell me but I think he thought I would walk away, even though that would never happen.

"Hi, I'm making pasta is that ok?"

"That's perfect baby" he came up behind me sniffing my hair,

"I love the way your hair smells, you are so sexy why don't we skip dinner and you can be my dessert!"

"Hugh as much as I would love to succumb to your needs, we need to talk, I want to know you inside out not just know you in the bedroom!"

"Alex your the only person who does know me, I don't ever talk to any woman, just you and Vera."

"Yes buy you don't talk to me not really!"

"We'll be prepared it's not pretty, you asked for this Alex so don't get upset or I'll walk out do you understand!"

"Ok I'll try not too"

"No that's not good enough"

"Ok, ok I won't"

I placed the pasta on the table and opened the wine I filled 2 large glasses and give one to Hugh then motioned him to sit, was I really prepared for this god knows but I needed to know.

"I was around about 3 when I realised what was going on, mother was always drinking and father worked away so he wasn't there much, she was always shouting and then passing out sometimes, I would have to clean up vomit and urine from her, then one day she wanted to play a game of hide and seek with me, I was happy as she never wanted to play with me ever, I went and hid in my closet and she found me!

We were laughing and hugging it was so much fun then it was her turn to hide Alex, she was gone, she wasn't there I couldn't find her!"

"What do you mean she left you in the house?"

"Well 3 days I think had gone when my father found me in the kitchen looking for food, he asked me where she was and I said hiding and she still is Alex, father said she overdosed when I was 6 but I can't believe that, I hate her for leaving me that's why I've never respected woman until now, until you!"

"What about your father?"

"Well he put me into the care of nannies for years and I started seeing Vera when I was 7, she help me no one else but her, me and my father weren't that close in result of this, I left home at 16 and built my empire. he got married again and had a daughter named Jessica who is about 11 now, I think I have seen her twice maybe three times"

"Hugh that's terrible!"

"What!"

"She is your sister you have to be there for her, maybe if I had a sibling then maybe bad stuff wouldn't have happened to me!"

"I don't know her Alex, she won't just let me into her life Alex I'm a stranger!"

"It's not to late to change she's still young and another thing you can't blame your father for your mother, she did this to you not him, so I think you should cut him some slack!"

"Are you fucking kidding me right now Alex! you haven't got a clue, who are you to sit there and say that you don't even know him!"

"I'm sorry Hugh, I didn't mean to offend you, I just think you should mend things before it's too late!"

"Stop trying to mend me Alex I have succeeded on my own and done fine, don't think you can change me!"

"Wow, when was I trying to change you, your being an arse to me are you serious! I wish I never cared about your life and I'm sorry that I do, but if you want to keep succeeding alone then you know where the fucking door is!"

I stood up and went to my room, what a joke, maybe I did push him but that was rude, does he not realise that I care for him, I haven't changed him, he has changed because he actually loves someone other than himself, well I thought he did!

I heard my front door close, he's gone! well if the truth hurts that much how will he ever get past this, I knew he was fucked up but this was on another level!