single parents | gbd (discontinued)

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sydney's pov

*1:30 pm*

i just left my house to pick up jackson. the whole day i was thinking about grayson. i couldn't tell if he was actually interested or just wanting to be friends

that didn't matter as long as i had him in my life i was fine with it. i live in LA and a suburban neighbor hood so it's always light traffic or none. for some reason today there was loads of traffic

with traffic it would take me an hour to get to jackson's school and i would be late for pickup. i flipped a U turn in the intersection and started driving home

i called grayson and asked him to pick up jackson if it wasn't a hassle and he agreed

once i got home i couldn't do anything so i went inside and did my favorite thing. eating

*2:20 pm*

i heard a car door shut followed by two more tiny slams and then a knock on my door. i heard one screaming child and that had to definitely of been mine

i opened the door and was immediately tackled by jackson. he hugged me and told me how much he has missed me

then that little demon ran off to his room with olivia and ignored me. i'm feelin the love

"hey! it's great to see you again" grayson said with the biggest smile

"hey you too. so do you want to go in the backyard while i get the kids to come down?"

"yeah of course it's just straight ahead right?"

"yeah and it should be unlocked" not gonna lie it was probably locked

i walked upstairs to get the kids and bring them down and into the yard. once they left i opened up the fridge and asked grayson if he wanted anything. he said he would just have a water

pfft lame

i brought out 4 waters for us. we really had nothing to talk about so there was problem numero uno. he would look at me every so often and flash a small smile which made my heart melt onto the FLOOR

i have to admit he was one of the sweetest guys i have ever met and i'm glad i met him no matter if we date or not. i really think i'm falling for him

in the middle of my thought i am interrupted by jackson coming up to me basically screaming at me. gotta love kids right

"momma i'm hungry" he said

"well what do you want i still have to go to the store"

"do we have grilled cheeses?"

"yes is that what olivia wants to?"

"yeah" he didn't even ask her wtf

"ok then i'll be back, grayson you can come in if you want" damn i am NEEDY

"yeah i'll come in" thank the lord he said yes

we walked inside and went straight to the kitchen. i pulled out the bread and cheese for the sandwiches

while i was bringing out the pan grayson spoke up getting rid of the silence in the air

"so what's it like being a single mom" is he stupid or something he's literally a single dad

"well i guess it's kinda fun but stressful at the same time. i love having jack all to myself and having him around but sometimes i wish he had a father figure in his life to play sports with and do father and son things with" i really did mean it too

"it just hurts when he ask me where his dad is and i just can't explain it, i change the subject because it's too touchy. i also get stressed out with work and what if i don't make enough money to get jack this or that or not having money for food. i mean it's scary"

"i understand. i wish olivia grew up with her mom. she really needs one. what am i gonna do when she gets older and people ask where her mom is. whos gonna do her hair every night. who's gonna do her makeup for prom. it pains me to see her struggle and say she wishes she had a mom like the rest of the kids" i could tell grayson was not too comfortable with the subject and was very sensitive to it so i tried to change it before he started to cry me a river

"could you get out the butter for me?" that was close

"yeah. so what's jackson like?" i stg

"he's a lot like me. he has my personality and my heart for sure but he does tend to act like his father sometimes and to be honest it really scares me. i haven't talked to him in years and i don't want my kid to turn out like him. overall i'm glad i had him because he is the light at the end of the dark tunnel." what am i shakespeare?

"but how's olivia?"

"she's great. like you said she is just like me but she looks a lot like her mom and it pains me to see her every morning and remind me of her mom. she does not act like her at all, in fact she is literally me with blonde hair and green eyes" when he brought up olivia's mother he started to tear up. awe he's so cute

"at least she's an angel and not the spawn of satan like jack" i just went sicko mode

grayson had a good laugh about that. dang this kid was really messing with my heart right now

for everyone that is continuously reading this story, i love you🥺 sorry i haven't posted in a while i was just feeling un-inspired and i needed a little time to myself but hopefully i can get back on track with my life