Life In A Poem (Sorta)

Freeing the Bird

All I ever wanted was to be us.
I hate waking up every single day realizing it will never be us.
And it can never be us.
It hurts.
It hurts even more when you truly love the person because you never thought it'll end up this way.
When you thought things are going well for you.
Our times together will just stay memories.
It's hard.
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve to be loved anymore. I don't deserve love.
There are times where I would always asked myself, what's wrong with me? Am i not enough? Why does it have to be her?
They said if you truly love the person, you have to let them go.. I did...
but it feels so suffocating.
Like a part of me has drifted apart.
And for it to come back, he has to come back too.. but it'll be selfish of me..
To force someone who fall out of love, to love me back. It won't make any difference. A good relationship will be useless if only one is happy and the other longed for another.
I need to free the bird and allow it to choose for himself.
Even though it always feels like i've been shots by millions of bullets whenever I see them. What hurts most is that you always have to go through that and act like you're okay. You have to act like you don't care even though you're dying inside. You have to act happy for them.
Well, I wish them all the best. And hope that he didn't choose the wrong girl.