I can't sit here and pretend like nothing's wrong
But I only have a day left
And then it's no use
But I want to do something
Something chaotic
Something impulsive
Before tomorrow is up
I want to be stupid
I want to say, out loud
That I'm still stupidly in love with you
I'm still stupid for you
I still want to do romantic things with I still want to kiss you
I still want to hold you in my arms and tell you everything will be okay
I don't want to be in this situation anymore
I just want to be friends if not something more
Someday
Again
When things are smooth again
I just want to sin again
Sin with you
God that sounds bad
My pyro maniac self wants to watch us burn
And yet again maybe burn with love and not anger
Passion and bliss not fury and hatred
I guess I just want to be gay
I just want to be romantic
A vampire
A wizard
A witch
Your worst nightmare, worst enemy
Yet, your lover, your daydream
Stars in the sky would never be enough to cover the cost of my mind
I just want to love you again
But love you right this time
Love you full
Love you til you believe it
Then I can let you go
Knowing my job is done
Knowing you believe you are beautiful and worthy of life
Because you are
But I'm too afraid to speak my mind
Even when you are sitting right next to me
Yet, you seem a million miles away
And everyday I feel the distance grow
The likeliness of us ever being able to come together again
Call a truce
It's all is so distant
All so, for lack of a better word:
Imaginary
But at least that's just for now
I'm going to hope it'll get better for us
So we'll have golden days again
Grand memories
And a teeny tiny band
Welcome to Falsettoland
