I have got invited to the Vanity Fair Oscars after party, I am very good friend of Dereck he works at Vanity and loves my style, so since we met because Kate, he invite me to everything, he also made me a little article at the magazine, it was a honor.
Is the day of the Oscars and I start getting ready, Mark and David are finishing doing my makeup and hairstyle while the Red carpet just start. Sarah Paulson just got at the Red carpet and I can be more in love with her, she's wearing a chic Brandon Maxwell pink dress, is kinda weird and not something I thought she would wear but she still look amazing, and I am thinking to myself that I hope she goes to the Vanity Fair after Party.
An hour and a half passed:
I'm stuck in traffic but the car has TV and I am able to watch the Oscars ceremony while we get to the after party, I am really excited and actually looking forward to drink some tequila this night, so I can be more relax to talk to everybody, Stella is going again with me so l feel kinda save and we got two tequila shots before leaving.
Just arrived to the Red Carpet at Vanity Fair after party and since si came last year too and also Stella has the same billboard with my name, the paparazzi are just really happy to see me and not going to lie, I am feeling really good with myself. I ran into Dereck and he invite me to sit with him and introduce me with some people, while we are having some drinks all the people that were at the ceremony start to arrive at the party and I am already feeling a little tipsy (haha).
After a while I think about Sarah and where she could be, right away after that though I flip and see this huge pink dress and notice is Sarah that just arrived but she's not along, she is with her girlfriend, which I don't know why I feel really jealous and my excited form before is gone, I don't want to go and say hi, it could be awkward and I am done with that. So I just flip back and keep talking with Stella and James Corden and his wife, they are really nice and fun, I keep joking with James that he can finally invite me to his show because I will be working in something real and he is really happy for me and says that of course he will have me, we have known for a while and I really love his show.
I am feeling kinda more than tipsy now and I really need to go to the bathroom, so I make my way to it, Stella stayed with Dereck and James, so I am going by myself which is not a good idea but I just didn't want to bother her. When I am out of the bathroom, feeling a little dizzy I run into Sarah without seeing her, so I made her split her drink on me.
- Oh my God, I am so sorry it was my fault I was not looking.
- Oh hi Mare is nice to see you again. And I am sorry to you're now going to smell like tequila.
- Is very nice seeing you too, you look awesome! And don't worry I already smell like tequila, I have been drinking so I guess that's the reason I was not looking (haha).
- haha ok, you look nice too. Let me introduce you to Holland - Holland this is Mare, She is going fo join AHS for next season and is going to be her big break.
- Hi hice meeting you Mare, congratulations, is a great show!
- Hi, thank you so much, I am really happy!
- We need to celebrate that now that we are here let's get you one last shot, Sarah said.
- One last shot?! Hell no, I am still fine. But yeah let's get one together, that would be fine.
We got to the bar, Holland stayed talking with other people while Sarah and I are getting a drink, I decided to take my phone and do and instastorie, goofy around while I am getting a tequila shot with the one and only Sarah Paulson, I can't just not believe what is happening.
Is almost 3 am and Stella and I are ready to go home, we say good by to Dereck and other people, James and Sarah already gone, Sarah went to me to say goodbye and wishing me good luck in everything that is about to come in my career.
I got home and I can't stop thinking about how fun it was but also about Sarah, I can't get her out of my mind, I got to talk a lot with her this time and I found out she is just the same person she is at interviews, she's kind and really fun, and have amazing stories to tell and a lot of advices, I think this crush to her is for real and I just got more obsessed with her, she was beautiful tonight, I keep thinking about how can be possible to look prettier in person. But I kinda remember that she was with her girlfriend and that I felt a little jealous; why did I feel like that, if I just met her, and all I know about her with from the TV, and I am not even gay, I am really confused and not liking to feel like that. I fall asleep on my thoughts.
