6 month passed
-Amor mío? I said
- Yes hon? Are you done?
- Yes, I am on my way home, be there in 45
- Ok, are you hungry? She asked
- Yes Honey, could you order some sushi?
- Sure, that sounds good.
- Ok, see you then.
I am back home and find Sarah in the sofa watching TV. The sushi has not arrived yet.
- Hey you- I said
- Oh H.HI honey, how was your day - She said this with a very weird look on her face
- Very good actually! But are you ok? You look like nervous
- Am. Actually, I have to tell you something...
- What is it? - I said this sitting on the sofa and giving her a kiss
- But promise me, you will heard me and don't get mad, ok?
- Am, is there a reason to get mad?
- Just promise me
- Honey, you need to tell me what going on! I'm scared
- Ok... she take a breath. My ex called me today. We talked
I got shock but I try to look calm - And... you want to tell me what you talked about?
- Yes I do, that's why I am telling you, she called.
I am quiet waiting for her to keep tell me
- She wanted to know how I was doing and one thing get to another... she stop and look at my reaction. - She said she miss me...
- And...?
- I didn't know what to say.
- So you just didn't say anything?
She's not answering me and look down
- SARAH- I call her attention
- I said, I don't even remember what I said to that. I just told her she has no right to call me at this time after all and just say that.
- because you miss her? Right? - I said
- No I do not! Is just...
- is just what? - I am really mad and I stand up
- Wait! I told you to please listen to me. - she takes my hand - I love you, I think about you now. I do not miss her, I actually haven't think about her since everything happened between us. Is just that I lived a lot of things with her and that call just reminded me of everything that's all, and I feel really bad about it. I told her I was with someone else and I asked her to never all me back. And she said she respect that but that she would like just to talk with me in person one last time. And we met...
- You met? When? Where? Here? I can feel my face is on fire
- of course not here, at my house
- And what happened?
- We just talk
- And...? She is not answering me- SARAH! If you just talked why are you so weird about it?
- Because... she tried to kiss me but I stoped it.
- WHAT?! What the hell she did that if she know you're with someone else! AGHHH I am so bad! - I run away and take the keys of the car I drive no where. I heard Sarah screaming my name but I run fast so she couldn't get me.
I start overthinking and crying. I turn the radio on and drive not knowing where I am going.
- AMOR MÍO- my phone rings
- Where are you- She said
- Don't know- I said
- Come back please, I am really sorry
- I need a moment for myself Sarah
- Please be save. And come back quickly please
After an hour driving nowhere I go back
- Sarah open the door, looks like she was waiting at the window for me. She ran to me but didn't say anything, she's waiting until I say something.
- I am sorry, I needed a moment. I said this while walking to the kitchen and see the sushi is already there but she was waiting for me to eat.
- No, I am sorry, I shouldn't go to see her on the first place. I didn't respond to her kiss I took her away right away, believe me! I don't love her anymore I actually didn't feel anything when I saw her, all I felt was anger because she came back to my life after all this time to make me confused but I should be because I don't have feelings for her anymore, believe, please.
- I sit while I listen to her and move the chair so she can sit next to me to eat.
- And what happened after she kissed you? I asked
- She got mad, she told me to stay well in a sarcastic way and leave. She's looking at me with puppy eyes waiting for my answer.
- I believe you. But I am really mad. I am really mad that she called, I am really mad that she kissed you and even knowing you are with someone else but I am most mad that you said yes to met with her, I feel jealous that I'm some leave she made you think about what you had with her, about your feeling for her or anything related to that. I understand she was important to you but put in my shoes and think how you will feel if it was the other way. I just can't stand the idea of you and she kissing again, I just can't!
- I know and I am really sorry, I shouldn't. I don't know what I went to see her.
- I think in some level you wanted to see her.
- That's not true. - She said
- Or maybe you just wanted to know how you feel about her after all this time, to make sure you love me? I don't know, it can be many thinks, and that's what makes me mad.
- Honey, I have never think twice if I love you or not, if it wasn't like that, I would be with you anymore. I just got confused, and I am sorry to disrespect you. I shouldn't. But know I can't erase what I did, I hope you forget me, it not happening again, you're the only one I think about all the time.
- I just need a moment to think, and I can't think when I am hungry, so let's just enjoy the sushi. - I added.
