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"Quit it!"|

1995

I continued to drunkenly giggle, as I ran around Fuckshit's house with just my under garments on, as he chased me in his underwear also. "Uh-uh!" Fuck shit exclaimed, as he suddenly threw me over his shoulder. I continuously pounded on his back, and through a fit of giggles begged him to let me down.

Plopping me down on the couch, Fuckshit took a seat beside me. "You know I love you girl." He spoke suddenly, taking my left hand it his own.  I admired the way our two skin tones contrasted together. Suddenly thoughts of Ray and I a couple nights ago flashed through my mind. Flashes of us making love in my room,  continued to race through my mind.

"I love you too." I spoke, after moment of silence. Did I really mean it? Who knows. I continued to stare at our inner-locked hands, as I became deep into my thoughts.

"If you love me, then why did you fuck Ray." Fuckshit questioned, his eyes boring into my own. It felt as if my soul had left my body when he uttered those words. Silence engulfed the room, as we both continued to stare at one another. Attempting to read the others thoughts through our eyes. 

"I-I don't know Olan." I finally spoke lowly, referring to him by his government name. I adverted my gaze from his, as I hung my head down.

How can I admit I'm in love with Ray to the same person that I am still in love with? That thought continued to cross my mind over and over again. "I'm sorry." I blurted out suddenly.

I could tell Olan was hurt by what I did. Hurt that I shared a vulnerable part of me that I had only shared with him. Hurt that I was now in love with another man, while still being in love with him. Hurt.

But I didn't wanna hurt him, no matter the amount of hurt he caused me. And I didn't wanna hurt Ray either.

Though he treated me like a toy, I am still somehow in love with him.

should I do another mid90s book?
or post more mid90s images in my imagines book?
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