I hurriedly put my hands over Estee's mouth to quite her down. In fear of the others hearing her. Well, mostly in fear of Fuck-shit hearing our conversation.
To say the least I was at a very confusing point in my life. And I suddenly found myself sneaking around with Ray, though I was never in a relationship with Fuck-shit.
"So what are you gonna do? You gonna come right out and tell Fuck-shit you banged his best friend?" Estee questioned, taking a drag from her cigarette. Taking a deep breathe, I finally decided to respond after moments of silence. "I-I don't know E." I spoke truthfully. For the first time I didn't know. I didn't know what to do. And I for certainly didn't know who I loved, or who I wanted to be with.
"Speak of the devil himself." E smirked, looking behind me. Turning around I notice Ray making his way over towards us. "I'll excuse myself." E spoke making her way over to Fourth-grade.
Standing there inches apart, taking the beauty in of one another, I itched to touch his beautiful brown skin. I itched to kiss his pink plump lips. And I itched to entangle my fingers in his locs, as our tongues fought for dominance in a heated kiss. But I couldn't.
"Are we just gonna stare at each other all day, or actually talk?" Ray questioned, finishing his sentence off with a chuckle. Looking away, I felt my brown cheeks start to heat up.
"So now I can't look at ya." I spoke as I slyly rubbed his arm. I just couldn't resist. I needed some skin on skin contact. Ray chuckled, taking my hand on his arm into his own, as he started to rub small patterns on my palm with his thumb.
And just from that slight action, I couldn't resist him any longer. Grabbing both of his cheeks into my palms, I proceeded to kiss him. Butterflies swarmed my stomach, as the warm sun beamed down on the both of us. My hands soon entangled in his locs, as his hands began to explore every curve and dip my body had to offer.
Pulling away from one another out of breath I stared into his eyes. His hands still roaming every crevice and dip in my body. Our eyes still locked on one another, as we stared into the others souls. It seemed as if in that moment our souls had become intertwined. As if we had become one.
In that moment I finally knew what it meant to be loved. What it felt like to be in love. What it felt like to be smitten for another.
What it felt like to not be treated like some toy.
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