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~ love ~

Jennie's POV

I like her.

I still like her.

I never stopped liking her.

I was just distracted. From everything.

My "love" for Kai kept me from her.

Did I really love Kai? I'm so confused. My head hurts. I feel dizzy. All I could do right now is to sit on my seat in the plane and think. But thinking made it worse.

The more I thought about it, the more frustrated I got. I didn't like it.

I felt so stupid realizing that I never really loved Kai in that way .I didn't miss him at all. I just missed his comfort. The way he would spend time with me and the way he would make me forget about Lisa.

All the guilt that I kept in my heart before is overflowing now. It feels really stupid that I made myself love him when I knew there was someone else more special in my heart.

I felt bad for lying to Kai. I felt bad for lying to my heart. I feel like my heart is angry at me but I knew that I deserved it.

Lisa's POV

After our concert, we went straight to the airport. Our staff brought our luggage to the airport so that we could go straight to our next country.

On the airplane, I could see Jennie staring at the ceiling on the other side.

She didn't look happy like she was earlier. I wanted to see her happy again like she was when Kai wasn't there yet.

Before Kai's arrival into her life, I liked her and I planned to say it to her when she got home from meeting him. They weren't together yet at that time, at least, that's what I thought.

When she got home, she told us during dinner that she was dating Kai.

My heart broke at her words and I quickly finished eating before I cried my eyes out.

Knowing Jennie, I couldn't change her mind. She was as stubborn as me.

So I tried my best to support both of them in hopes of getting over her. But I just couldn't. I loved her and that's all I knew.

Until now, I just loved her endlessly and tried to keep it as a sisterly love. It was hard but I got used to it.

Every single day was torture for me but if it was for her, I was ready to sacrifice everything.

I just hope that one day, she'll recognize my feelings. Even if she doesn't like me back, I will still continue to love her because I know that I can't love another person as long as she's alive.

Love.

It isn't a hard thing to do or say. As long as you truly love that person, its easy and you do it naturally without a doubt. It just becomes complicated when that person you want to give all your love to, won't accept it.