Ex-boyfriend to Husband [[Nalu FanFiction]]

CHAPTER #10

WARNING! WARNING! SPG HAS BEEN DETECTED

a/n: I'm really sorry for not updating this book for too long. I got too busy after the announcement of a passer and praise God because I passed my Licensure exam. Anyway, the Italic part of this book will be a flashback so please don't be confused about that part, 'kay. And just like what I've promised this chapter is too long so bear with me.

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"You know what Lucy... Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better"

I don't know why but I keep on thinking about what she had said to me. I knew for myself that even I think about it over and over again - my mind will refuse to start creating something better with him. Yes, my mind is too stubborn but my heart is not.

I know deep inside my heart I'm still in love with Natsu. I knew it... I'm just too damn scared about getting hurt again after what happened to us.

I close my eyes tightly as the scenario that I tried to forget flashes before my eyes - torturing me all over again.

I ARCH my body as he took one peak in his mouth, swirling his tongue as I hold on him tight. His hands travel down my body, his touch sending tingles of warmth on my skin. I shiver with delight whine his hand found its destination.

I don't know if I'm doing the right decision. Maybe it will just mess up things more. Maybe nothing will change. But I don't want to regret this moment... not when I've been waiting for this for a long time.

The very first time I laid my eyes on him - I knew from that moment that this man is the one for me - which he is the one who destined for me. Maybe some people might think that I'm so foolish to believe in destiny. But I know better. I know what I feel, I know my own heart. I don't need to do this if it's just something that I got used to. I can choose men that swarm around me. But I don't want to... Because I only want one person in my life and that is... him...

...

Natsu Dragneel.

Our eyes lock for a moment - there's nothing in his eyes but desire. He has no control. I made him this way, or should I say, the alcohol made him this way?

With one swift thrust, he entered me. A gasp escapes my lips as I felt pain rippled my body. I readied myself for his brutal thrust but he didn't move. Instead, I felt his warm breath on my neck.

"Are you okay?"

"Y-Yes"

He waited for me to adjust and when my tense body relaxes, he started to move. He keeps a distinct rhythm, my body moving with him as if I've done this for ages. My body convulses with tremors of sensations as I reach my climax over and over again. A few more thrust and he followed. He growled and push deep inside me as his length spasm with a release that sends me to the edge once again.

I DIDN'T want to remember it. I tried so hard to stop myself from remembering our past. Sometimes, I tried to distract myself from work but now that I'm here in this place - distracting myself from it is impossible or sometimes I just let it passed in my head like it's just part of thoughts that are running in my head. I don't let myself think about that night that much. That moment when I felt that I was enough for him - that he will be contented with me.

Everything was just so simple back then. All I dreamed was to have him, to notice me, to love me. I was so happy.

I shook my head trying to remove all those things that run through my head. I don't want to remember it. I hate it... please... stop coming back...

A sobs escape from my lips when I failed to forget it.

A SMILE formed in my lips when I open my eyes. Sunshine is practically shining in the entire room but what really makes me happy is the thing that happened between us last night. I don't think I could forget it...

I turned my body to check his face while sleeping but my smile that flustered in my face soon to vanish when I've seen nothing but a blanket and pillow. I slowly pull myself to sit and let my eyes traveled in the entire place.

I sigh, and then pick up my clothes that scattered on a floor. The moment I stepped out in the room - I've seen my friend name Loki Lion "Are you going out to eat your breakfast?" he asks me.

I shook my head and smile to him "I'm looking for Natsu... did you happened to see him?" He pauses for a moment "I think I saw him in the pool area."

I smile at him widely and excuse myself. The moment I arrived in the pool area - my heart instantly pierce by the thousands of knife. A tear escape on my eyes, my mind is not thinking properly. It feels like my mind stops the moment I saw them making out.

My mouth parted as saw him smile as the girl pushed him in the chair as they continue kissing each other. I clench my fist and to save myself from so much misery I run... run away from then, run as fast I can to save a tiny part of heart from being broken.

I don't want to see them... I don't know what to do... I don't know what to say... I don't understand what's happening... maybe Natsu has an explanation about it. Yeah! Natsu will explain everything... I knew that he loves me just like how much love him.

Day after day I heard nothing to him... he never came from me to say or explain his side until one day, I accidentally overheard them with that girl...

"Oh, Lucy?"

"Yeah, I thought you had a girlfriend."

"It was just a good fucked. I enjoyed it very much" he says to the girl before kissing her, "Besides, I like you, Jane."

I bit my lower lips as I walked away... definitely making sure that I won't cross my path with them. My heart hardened like its protecting me from him... making me feel numb. I'm such a fool to believe that Natsu Dragneel destined to be with me. I smile bitterly... I never thought that one day I will regret loving him... I regret giving my heart to someone who doesn't deserve it even a tiny bit.

NOW tell me how could you forgive someone who never says he's sorry to you not even once? I know I should forget it... I know that it is all in the past but my heart can't just let go because I wanted to start a new life... even I wanted to forget my feelings towards that guy... my heart... I know deep inside my heart...

I was still hoping that Natsu and I will be together.