I Just Want You to Love Me || Jinkook

11. Putting the pieces together

Morning had arrived. The sun was shining in through the window and Jin still didn't know how he was supposed to face Jungkook after regaining his memories. The more he thought about Jungkook the more embarrassed he became. All he saw in front of him were the things they had done and Jin couldn't help but think Jungkook had looked really sexy. Sure, it had hurt to have his dick up his ass but he'd still enjoyed it. He knew he shouldn't be thinking those things but he couldn't help it. 

What bothered him though was mostly the fact that he understood that Jungkook was in love with him. Jungkook had indeed confessed to him that night and in the car before the accident as well. It made Jin think about other things, such as when they shared the bed in Canada and Jungkook said he was pretty, or when Jungkook had forced him to sit on his lap, or how Jungkook always had his arm around Jin when they were sleeping. Jin felt like a complete idiot for not realizing Jungkook's feelings earlier. The problem was that he didn't know how to respond to them. He didn't feel like he was in love with Jungkook but clearly he enjoyed being with him that way. He liked his touches and his kisses. His sweet words made Jin feel loved and appreciated. But did that really mean Jin liked him back? He wasn't sure. The age difference made him feel a bit weird and on top of that they were both male and in the same group.

Jin pulled out his phone and went to the search bar. He never in a million years thought he would be actively searching for 'Jinkook fanfic' but yet here he was doing exactly that. The first thing that came up was some poorly written werewolf!AU and Jin scrolled right past that shit. If he was actually going to read something about them he wanted something good. The second result was a smut collection. The summary made it look like it had some potential so he hesitantly clicked on it. Not even a few lines in and they're already fucking. Jin stopped reading and threw his phone away. He felt so embarrassed. He'd actually gotten hard by that shit. Not even a full story and he was hard. Just the description of Jungkook's body made his imagination run wild. 

Jin stacked some pillows on top of each other and leaned back on his bed. If he was going to jack off he was at least going to be comfortable while doing it. He wasn't wearing any underwear, so the bulge was clearly visible through his silky pajamas. Jin reached down and touched it through the fabric, the pleasure spreading all the way down to his toes making them curl up a bit. He was getting warm so he unbuttoned his pajama shirt. It was too much of a hassle to take it off with his cast, so he left it hanging on his shoulders. He went back to rubbing himself and a soft moan slipped through his lips.

Jungkook wondered if he'd actually died and gone to heaven when he walked in through Jin's door. Jin froze as soon as he spotted him before giving out a shriek and covering himself up with a blanket. His entire face was bright red.

"Don't you know how to fucking knock?!" he yelled. Jungkook diverted his eyes and turned around to leave the room again.

"Sorry!" he said and began closing the door.

"Wait!" Jin suddenly called out, surprising the both of them. Jungkook stopped in his tracks and expectantly peered at Jin through the crack in the door. Jin swallowed hard while thinking of what to say. He'd honestly never been so embarrassed his his entire life, and he'd done some pretty questionable things both on and off camera. He finally came to the decision that it'd be too awkward to ask Jungkook to leave. "Wanna watch?" he eventually said, making Jungkook's mouth fall open from shock. 

"Y-you don't mind?" he asked, almost pinching himself to make sure he wasn't dreaming. Jin shyly looked away and removed the blanket. 

"Close the door," he said and Jungkook hurried inside and shut the door tightly behind him. He stood awkwardly in the room, not knowing where to go or what to do. His palms were sweating from anticipation. Jin moved up a bit to make room for Jungkook at the foot of the bed. Jungkook limped over and sat down.