Wait

Chapter 6

"Wait..." Dr. Wen said moving the stick thing.

"What?" I asked.

"Congratulations!"

"I'm having a baby?"

"Yes!"

"Wow!"

"Congrats," Momma J said.

"Thanks," I said.

***

On the way home I was quiet, I was shocked, I mean it's real. I'm officially having a kid. I thought I would be happy, it's kind of depressing without Jay here, I want to be a big happy family, but without knowing when he will be back is very stressful.

"So how does it feel to be pregnant?" Momma J asked.

"So far it feels horrible," I said getting out of the car to go to the house.

"I promise as time goes bye you will start loving it."

"And when Jayden gets back."

"I understand it's hard, but if it takes longer than expected for him to get back then you still have to move on with life sweetie."

"I know but you should be one to know how hard it is to be able to look the person you love in the eye every day then the next day they gone."

"I know, but I still had to go on who my life, I know it does take time but you'll get there, even if that means moving on from him."

"No he doesn't ever want me to move on, and I don't ever want to either, because I know he would do the same for me if it were to go down the other way."

"Well do what you have to do to be able to sleep peacefully at night."

***

Two weeks later Momma J and I sat at Jay's trial, I was very anxious to see how soon he would be getting out. Once I saw my baby come out looking sexy in orange I couldn't help but smile. Though out the whole trial I barley payed attention, I was to busy looking at Jay.

Momma J grabbed my hand pulling me back into attention. The judge pounded his mallet on the gravel. I was scared, I can't lie to you.

"Jayden Brown will be getting 25 to life on beh-," the judge said.

I didn't hear anything else after that I was so shocked. Why? Why him? Why me? Why'd I have to fall so hard for someone who lives that lifestyle? Someone who knew what they were doing knowing the type of trouble they can get into, but didn't care because they wanted to go on with the "family business"? Why couldn't he had stopped when I first asked him to when he was in the hospital? Why our family? Why this long for minor dealings?

I started crying, I wanted to faint, so much was happening in my life right now, all because of him. I would have never been pregnant, I would still be at my house, I wouldn't be so sad in depressed. I might have been a normal 15 year old girl, who could have had better grades, a group of friends, a legit boyfriend. But I invested six years of my life into him, all that to just end up being let down. But that's love right? I mean I love that boy down to my core, I mean those six years invested in him has been the best times of my life. I care for him, I love him, and to be honest if I were able to start over again knowing how everything went down, I would have did it all over again. He makes me whole, these next 25 years may be the most depressing but, he makes it all worth while, nobody can make me feel what he makes me feel. If I were to start another relationship I would never be all in because I know Jay is the only man I could ever love whole heartedly.

"Mackenzie! Mackenzie! Mackenzie!" Again I was being brought back by Jay this time.

"Baby!" I yelled trying to smile.