Pain [jack&jack]

6

No. No. No.no

"Hello" Gilinskys deep voice rings from the other line. I choke a sob, keeping my breathing at an unsteady pace, like I just ran a race.

"Hello?" He asks, confused.

I look around my room, looking for something to make up. Nothing.

"He-" before Gilinsky can finish, I end the call, throwing my phone onto my bed and collapsing beside it, tears flowing out of my eyes like waves, my hands instantly start wiping at my eyes, soaking the skin.

My breathing is ridged, my vision is blurred and I can't process what just happened, the room is spinning and it feels like it's collapsing on me. My body takes control and my legs start towards my purse, grabbing my anxiety pills and popping one into my mouth, easily Dry swallowing it. Almost instantly my head stops spinning and my breathing steadies.

My phone starts ringing, I can hear it through my bed sheets. I reach over, an unknown number appearing on the screen.

"He-hello" I say, my voice cutting off at my first attempt.

"Kai" Gilinsky's recognizable voice speaks from the other end.

"Gilinsky" my voice is unsteady, and untrusting.

"I've missed you" his voice cracks at the end.

And that's why you didn't call me for 7 months straight, leading me right into horrible, depression. I think, but don't say. Infact, I can't say anything, I'm speechless.

"Kai, we're coming to Omaha" Gilinsky's voice seems excited and happy.

"I'm not I'm Omaha" I say just above a whisper. Right now, my voice doesn't sound like it belongs to me. I sound like a different person.

"What?" His voice sounds like he's breaking inside.

"I'm in California" I state, almost falling because of how long this conversation has lasted without me blowing up.

"Kai" Gilinsky's starts. "I'm in California right now" his voice is unrecognizable, just like mine did.