Dear Diary

Bonus Part II

(NB! Important A/N at the end of the chapter)

June 7th 2018

I turn in my bed, then I open my eyes, look at the digital clock on my nightstand and sigh. The date in the corner flashes June 7th. It seems like all the past days have gone in a blur. Today's Thursday, and I drag myself out of bed to get ready for work.

At 06.15 I leave the house on my motorcycle, having a feeling something bad will happen today. What does it really matter, I'm already in an emotional hell. So what can be worse than this?

I got off work a bit earlier that usual and therefore get home about an hour earlier than I would do on a regular day.  When I get home I go straight up to the second floor and lock myself into my room.

About 30 minutes later I can hear the door downstairs and I know that my brother is home. I send him a text saying that I'm in my room in case he needs me and get a reply that he figured seeing how my motorcycle is parked out front.

Another hour pass and I can hear the doorbell ring. Ai'Nic opened the gate and I could hear an all too familiar voice downstairs in the living room.

A message from Ai'Nic pops up on my phone screen,

Ai'Kla is here, he wants to speak with you...

I don't feel like seeing him...

Tell him to leave.

I place my phone on my desk and leave the room to go to the bathroom. On my way back I stop dead in my tracks as I can hear Ai'Nic and Ai'Kla talk downstairs.

"...Just tell him I'm sorry, please. I never meant to hurt him. He means too much to me for me to intentionally make him feel bad. If it's any difference at all...Ai'Nic... I love P'No...and that's why I'm now saying goodbye...I'll be leaving for Hong Kong tomorrow, could you please tell him that he don't have to worry because he won't see me ever again..."

"Dude... that would probably hurt him even more... Because... Kla, he fell in love with you...that's why he's hurting so much now. Because you already left him behind without even hearing his side of all this madness"

He's leaving... Ai'No... snap out of this... tell him... go after him... but he probably don't want me to...

I go back into my room, fall on my back onto the bed and try to make any sense of all this. Kla is leaving... and I'm too stupid and stubborn to realize that the person I've fallen in love with is soon to be gone...

How long will he be gone? Will he even come back? Does he even care about how I feel? Not long after I can hear the gate open and close again and the motor of a car fades away...

Tears fall from my eyes and I can't hold my emotions back anymore. I'm in an internal fight against myself and I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

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here's a knock on my door but I don't care, Ai'Nic walks in and sigh when he sees me.

"So, you heard... didn't you?"

"Yeah.."

"Then...maybe you have a decision to make... P' I don't want to see you like this anymore, please tell him. Go and stop him, you're the only person that can."

"I  need time..."

That night I go to bed with a conflicted mind.

What should I do?