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venele

Kentrell

"walk!"

"okay!" I keep the same tone with shayaa, waving him off me.
"extra ass."

Shayaa been real mad at me lately. Saying 'no' every time i asked to go somewhere, picking me up from school himself and bringing all his work over to the house to make sure I didn't leave and 'be sneaky' as he was calling my behavior lately. I don't know what his problem was.

"you really playing with me today trell- know what, give me that damn phone."

"For what bugg- damn." I feel myself getting frustrated. I start planning on refusing to give it up but the decision becomes his when he snatches the device out my hand.

"You doing too much!" I swing, hitting shayaa in the chest before I stomp my way in the house.

It was like I was on punishment or something.

He caught me half naked on FaceTime one little time and all of a sudden he my daddy. Not that I knew my daddy, or I was in any position to tell somebody who does everything for me that he wasn't but— ugh' he getting on my fucking nerves.

"Take your little ass to that damn room and don't come out!" I hear Shayaa call out as I push the front door open.

I swing it so hard it hits the wall and I immediately get Rakim, Melly and Tay's attention.

I make eye contact with all of them
holding it longer with Tay as I make my way upstairs without a word, an angry shayaa coming in the house behind me.

"Slam another gotdamn thing-

"FUCK YOU!"

I feel myself on the verge of tears being as mad as I was. I pick my feet up and run to my room opening and slamming the door hard enough to make my wall shake as tears ran down my face.

I just wanted Tay.

I don't know why but it's like we haven't talked in a week even though I kept seeing him. He wasn't even coming to school anymore, apparently Shayaa kept giving him shit to do so he couldn't.

"Don't worry about him he just got a little pissy ass attitude." I hear my brother talking about me, making me wipe my eyes and sniffle.

"We totally can't see that." Rakim joked, laughing inwardly. "Nah nigga what you do to him?"

"He wanna act grown so I took his phone."

"How was he acting grown?" I hear Tay's voice.

"You probably just being mean to him and shit, you know he sensitive right?"

"Nigga you think ion know my own brother or something?" I could feel how defensive shayaa got.

"I'm just saying." Tay held his argument.
"You'n need to be yelling at him and shit."

"Aye Tay man why are you so concerned?" Shayaa continued on the topic of me."I could've sworn I feed, bathe and shelter his ass all on my own."

"Shy stop being so mean," Jamell soothed the situation. "that might be your brother but you can't just be picking on him."

"I ain't picking on shit." Bugg said, his voice becoming a little harder to hear from my door. "His ass just need the shit smacked out of him sometimes- he lucky I don't be hitting him."

"That boy gonna fuck around and hate you watch." Rakim laughed.

"Nah, I'm all he got. We could be at each other's throats but everything I do is out of love for that little nigga. He just need to stop being so fast."

"I feel like I been giving him too much space and freedom, like I really got him spoiled."

"It's just that that's my heart forreal man, I don't wanna see him hurt, crying none of that." Shayaa continuing, vented. "That's why I was acting like that with Tay, Man I'm sorry." he sighed.

"If you say you and my brother got nothing going on Imma believe you. I just don't wanna have to kill your ass, you know?"

I felt more tears running down my face
and groaned, bringing my legs up as I propped my head on the door. Tay was right— I am sensitive. I just can't deal with wanting to be with him and keeping Shayaa's blood pressure down all at the same time.

Shayaa just been coddling me so long and I can't help that I fell for Tay. Though despite that being with Tay was so hard, I wanted it so bad.