THE REAL US (On-going)

TRU#17

Queen's POV

In a table with my family and his family we are eating lunch. Pinipilit ko ang sarili kong kumain at mabagal na ngumunguya. I keep thinking about what Vince told me

You fool me'

No. I would never do that. Kung sana nakipagbreak na ako sa kanya bago nya pa malaman edi sana hindi nya inisip na niloko ko sya. Edi sana hindi naging ganun yung tingin nya sakin. Kasalanan ko. Its all on me.

Naririnig ko silang nag uusap usap pero wala naman akong maintindihan. I just look at my plate eat slowly and think.

Minutes later Xymin beside me held my hand. Awtomatikong napatingin ako sa kanya at isinenyas nya ang Mom nya.

"P-Po?" nauutal kong sabi dahil hindi ko naman nadinig o naintindihan kung ano man ang sinabi nya. Yun ay kung kausap nya ako.

"You're spacing out" bulong ni Xymin na ako lang ang makakarinig.

Tita Xandra, Xymin's Mom smiled at me "Hija, what kind of wedding dress do you like?"

"Any kind of a wedding dress. Im fine with it. I am beautiful anyway" I try to make them laugh and they did. I smile a little and look at Xymin who's still holding my hand under the table.

Inalis ko ang pagkakahawak ng kamay nya sakin at nagpatuloy sa pagkain.

"I think our Xymin and Queen would be a very great husband and wife. Oh dear" hinawakan ni Tita Xandra ang kamay ko na nasa ibabaw ng lamesa. Kaharap ko lang sya kaya madali lang nyang naabot ang kamay ko.

Napatingin ako sa kamay namin at kay Tita Xandra.

"You are beautiful hija, I cant wait to have my grandchildrens" nasamid ako sa tinuran nya agad namang nag abot ng tubig si Xymin na ininom ko.

"Uhm hahaha."

"Are you okay hija?" nag aalalang aniya

"Opo Im fine" sagot ko.

narinig ko pang tumawa ng mahina sina Tito Dominick, Mom at Dad.

"Maybe she's just shock because you are talking about our grandchilds" tumawa ulit si Dad. "Im sure we will have a lot of them" nakangiting anito sa Dad ni Xymin. Napalingon naman ako kay Xymin ngingisi ngisi lang ang loko.

"Dad, Mom, Tito, Tita maybe we can talk about that after we graduated" suhestsyon ko.

Nagngitian lang sila at saka pinagpatuloy ang pagkain. I really dont know what they talk about earlier but I dont care anymore. I can still feel my heart in pain.

Matapos kumain dumeretso ako sa kwarto ko sa mansyon na to. Pumunta ako sa balcony at tinanaw ang dagat. This is my favorite spot before.

My balcony.

I remember something. I have a friend back when I was in 1st grade. We play here everytime his parents are having a meeting with mine in my Dad's study room. His face is not clear in my mind. Hindi ko na maalala all I know is he's white, he likes pink and he has a little mole at the side of his eyebrow.

Napangiti ako. Kamusta na kaya sya? How does he look now? Hindi ko man lang alam ang pangalan nya pero kalaro ko sya. Im a child anyway.

"This place is familiar" boses iyon mula sa likod ko. And when I turn around it was the annoying husband to be.

"Psh!" inirapan ko lang sya at saka ibinalik ang tingin sa dagat. Naramdaman kong tumayo sya sa tabi ko pero hindi ko na sya nilingon.

I can still hear Vince words towards me.