SUICIDAL ( taekook )

03- Movie-talk

(sorry for any grammar mistakes, please ignore them)

( Jungkook P.O.V )

The moment I sat foot in the classroom I wanted to go back to my room. I felt my skin begging for the blade to cut through it. I felt miserable.

But I knew I just needed to do what I always do, pretend to be invisible. That wouldn't be hard since everyone already sees me like that. Invisible, not something to care about. 

I quickly took a seat in the back of the classroom, looking down while fidgeting with my hands. I felt alone in this room full of people. Like I didn't belong there. I quickly began overthinking everything. Why can't I just be a normal, happy kid. I didn't ask for this life, I didn't even ask to be born.

With that the teacher came in. Taehyung walking behind him with a baby blue hoodie on. We haven't talked since he kinda caught me cry last night. Truth is I had a nightmare, which I had often. Always about something bad that's happened in the past. I felt bad for being rude to Taehyung the other day when he arrived, but I was just scared.

I need to say sorry to him.

Everyone took their seats, of course no one sitting beside me, and then it got quiet. Taehyung stood beside the teacher, shyly looking down, biting his lip, I couldn't help but think he looked adorable "Everyone this is Kim Taehyung, he just moved to the building and is now a student in this class, please welcome him with kindness".

No one said anything, most of them didn't care. But a few people seemed to love some new flesh in the classroom, looking Taehyung up and down with hungry eyes.

The teacher continued "Taehyung please take a seat beside Jungkook" he pointed to the back of the classroom, where I was.

Taehyung nodded and slowly walked towards me, smiling at me while placing himself at the chair beside me. I had taken my books up and begun drawing. I loved drawing, it was a way of getting my emotions out.. my way of escaping reality and relax when I didn't have the opportunity to get my pain out other ways.

( Taehyung P.O.V )

When the teacher told me to sit with Jungkook, I got really happy. Even though I didn't know a lot about him yet, and he was rude to me yesterday, I still felt comfortable around him in some way.

The other day when he told me to leave him alone, I could see the lie in his eyes. His eyes held so many emotions and stories. They were begging me not to leave him. Begging me not to let him be alone.

Sinde I've been here since I was born, I have met a lot of people through the years. A lot of people that didn't have an easy life. Which resulted in me being good at knowing people's emotions. I've always wanted to help people, it makes me happy.

I placed my books at the table, and turned my head to look at Jungkook. He was drawing, I couldn't exactly see what he was drawing, but he looked really focused on it.

We had history, and our teacher made us watch a movie about some war.

5 minutes passed and I looked at Jungkook again, he was still drawing, but this time I could see what he was drawing.

A boy. A boy sitting alone in a room, darkness and shadows surrounding him. It looked so realistic and aesthetic. Of course it was a dark thing to draw, but it was beautiful. He is really talented.

I know it probably was a bad idea, but I leaned in towards Jungkook and whispered "I like your drawing, your incredibly talented"

He immediately looked up at me wide-eyed, face inches away from mine. He looked kind of panicked, quickly closing his 'drawing book' and looking down.