LOL IM JOKING!!! I scrammed breaking the awkward silence.
Everyone begins laughing including Namjoon which I was surprised by. I was so relieved. I almost fucking caused world war 3!
The party continues but I'm standing in the bathroom looking in the mirror, questioning why I'm at this party. I ruined it, it's not been the same since I said what I said. What if I've ruined our friendship?
Like I know he laughed about it but I could tell he was annoyed. I would be if I was him. What if he tells Jennie, it will be so awkward at work. A tear runs down my eye as I look at photos of me and Namjoon.
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This is my favourite one. I'm such a horrible friend. I was trying to break up his relationship and I don't know why?
I hear a knock on the door and before I can say anything, it swings open. It's Namjoon. I try to wipe the tears away without him seeing, but he saw.
He came in and shut the door behind him. 'Omg what wrong?' He asked with a soft and comforting tone to his voice. Then I break down, crying to the point I can barely breath, to the point where my heart hurts.
I slowly sit onto the floor while being blinded with tears, Namjoon joins me and hugs me. The hug lasts for around 5 minuets and then he finally spoke 'please tell me what's wrong babe. I mean Tae'. I was too upset to reacted. I didn't answer.
Shortly after he lifted me up so I was facing the mirror looking at myself and him through it. He had his hands on my shoulders and said.... 'Look at yourself. Your hair, face, body, everything is perfect! I hate to see you like this, you're my best fiend in the whole world. Always remember that, now stop crying please and smile. I love your cute box smile so much'
I looked at him through the mirror and said 'what you think it's cute?' At first he hesitated but eventually said yes. He tried to play it off but I could see a little redness in his checks, is he blushing at me? I wiped away my tears and gave him a smile, a box smile.
He started laughing and then his hands feel from my shoulders to my hips and he didn't move them. For some reason we were both comfortable with it, what does this mean?
I smiled again at him through the mirror but this time more soft, he was looking straight into my eyes and then he bit his lip, I blushed. WHAT IS GOING ON???!!!! IM SO CONFUSED!!!
With his hands he turned me around quickly, we were face to face looking straight into each others eyes, his hands still on my hips and then......
He kissed me.
I didn't stop him. But I'm straight, well I thought I was straight? I don't know what's happening but I'm enjoying it. The kiss felt like it lasted forever. It felt passionate and right, but then it stopped. Namjoon pushed me off him and he looked scared.
Before I could say anything, he ran straight out. I was alone. A tsunami of emotions hit me all at once. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON? I don't know if I should be happy or cry my eyes out? Am I in love in him??????????
