Second Chances

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[Lloyd's POV]
I felt depressed again..just thinking of being dead.. I didn't listen to my therapist, I don't care what they say..I'm just a waste of time.
"Lloyd you okay?." Andy said
"I-I'm..Fine." I said lying
Andy sighs heavily.
"Lloyd..I know your depressed, just get some medication..you have family for gods sake Lloyd just..don't leave us..your family cares about you just try and not think about things like that. Okay?" Andy said as he places his hand on my shoulder.
I didn't respond.
"Lloyd..please.." Andy said
Andy walked closer to me and holds his hands in mine, I didn't flinch like I usually do when he's that close to me.
"Your not flinching..Lloyd just please..your controlling your own emotions to not even react to people..do you do this when your at home?" Andy said softly giving me worried eyes.
Tears filled my eyes then I fell to the floor of the locker room crying.
"IM SO FUCKING NUMB!!" I screamed out loudly
Andy grabs me and hugs me tightly as I cried in his arms.
"Lloyd..look at me.. please..I'm not mad I'm just worried about you.." Andy said
I looked at him then he climbs on top of me and presses his lips against mine.
My eyes widened in fear, I didn't know what to do,I felt nervous, Andy let me go I stepped back scared and just horrified.
"Lloyd..please don't I-I've been meaning to say this but.. I-I'm...I'm in love with you..will you be my boyfriend..it's okay if you say no." Andy said looking down at his feet embarrassed.
"Y-Yes.." I said softly
Tears rolled down Andy's cheek as he cried and smiled softly and walked towards me and hugged me.
"Thank you..." Andy said as he kissed my cheek.
I blushed softly as Andy snuggles into my arms as I sat down leaning my back against a locker.
I stroked my fingers through his hair gently watching him sleep.
I heard a voice in my head yelling loudly as if it was me..screaming on the inside.
"D-Death..with...be..here...for..y-you ...SOON!" The voice said in my head I felt it ringing in my ears giving me a horrible headache.
"Grr-..Fuck.." I groaned as I placed my hand on the side of my head as I felt the pain get worser.
"You okay?" Andy said as he woke up leaning back into my arms.
"I'm just having a headache..it hurts like hell though.." I said as the pain stopped
"Oh..Okay.." Andy said as he gets up
"Andy Wait!" I said as he almost walked out the door of the locker room.
"Huh wha-. Andy said before I grabbed him and pinned him to the wall and pressed my lips against his kissing him.
Andy smiled softly as he looked at me and waved goodbye smiling sweetly.
Fuck I have English class now.
I quietly walked into my class seeing that most of my classmates payed no attention towards me which kinda surprises me, Usually when people see a emo kid like me they'll think I just act this way for attention etc...but I guess not.
Then I heard a faint laugh.
"Just look at him..he looks pathetic..bitch no his skin is legit paper..does he ever go outside.?" The girl said laughing then one of her friends spoke up.
"That's kinda fucked up for saying that Alexis, seriously, you can't judge a person for the way they look, it's sickening how the way you act.." Her friend said
I got out of my seat and walked towards them.
"Actually no I haven't see the light of day since I was 12 from my drug and alcohol addicting mother who is in jail now..you damn people make me fucking sick..go to hell.." I said
Alexis bursted out laughing.
"H-He spoke-.. I can't..I fucking can't.." She said laughing
I had the urge to kill, I had the urge to break her skull open.
"Kill...-...You little bitch.." I mumbled under my breath
"Whatchu say emo boy?" Alexis said
"N-Nothing.."I said quietly
"Want me dead..?" She said
I stood there silent feeling dead inside having the urge to scream.
"So giving me the silent treatment eh?" Alexis said
I glared at her giving her a death stare.
"Get the hell away from me you fucking whore.." I said to her face whimpering slightly
"Excuse me I'm not a whore sweetie...your the whore..for having gay parents is sickening." Alexis said
"Back off Alexis damn...he is right you can be such a bitch and a whore sometimes." Andy said which made me jump.
"Jesus Christ Andy...you scared the shit outta me.." I said leaning my head against his shoulder.
"Heh sorry.." Andy said
"Fucking gay cunts!" Alexis yelled out
Andy slapped Alexis across the face making her cry out and fall back on her knees.
"Don't call him that..he's emotional.." Andy said as he hugged me whispering "Just ignore her okay babe.."
I felt hurt honestly..calling me these names..I should die..I should die...I SHOULD JUST ROT IN JAIL WITH MY GOD DAMN MOTHER AND CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY DAY AND NIGHT!
I felt like as if my tears turned to blood I heard somebody scream out horrified...yelling demon across the room which was Alexis.
"I should..just rot in jail with my mother and cry myself to sleep..I guess all this regret is wasted on me.." I said as tears streamed down my face, Andy hugs me whispering 'Shhh..' A couple of times to calm me down.
There wasn't even a teacher..the class was silent they were just staring at me horrified and felt bad for me it looked like they wanted to help me but they didn't want to interfere with the drama.
Alexis laughed as she saw me cry.
"You fucking liar you weren't abused..YOU JUST WANT ATTENTION!" Alexis yelled at me and kicked me in the ribs making me almost scream I coughed out blood.
"Lloyd!" Andy said as he catches me in his arms as I fell to the ground.
"Fuck school..Andy get my fucking phone and text the contact that says Nick & Johnny and text them...." I said slurring my words as I felt like I was losing my mind cause of how hard Alexis hit me.
Alexis's friend was forced to take a video of that and posted on Instagram tagging both of my parents and the whole fucking band.
Tears were streaming down the girls face as she handed Alexis her phone back and ran towards me sitting on her knees.
"L-Lloyd I'm so sorry for what my friend forced me to make a video of..whatever I do I don't mean it..I just do it so Alexis won't hurt you..take all the blame on me.." She said while crying.
"It's okay we can be your friends if you want to.." Andy said whispering so Alexis won't hear
The girl smiled softly as she was still crying a bit, She nodded and told us her name.
Her name was Raven.
"Cmon Lloyd lets go..Raven you coming?" Andy said as he helped me up.
Raven nodded sweetly.
Raven looked like she was 17, She had dark black hair pale skin and bright blue eyes,She was wearing a black crop and some ripped black jeans that were up to her waist and wearing a black jacket.
"So Lloyd, I've heard a lot about you...you seem shy.." Raven said
"Y-Yeah I just have a lot of mental issues the doctors don't even know what type of mental disorder I have..I'm mostly scared of people cause they'll hurt me even though they won't." I said
"Why would you think that? Sorry if I bring up anything dark..I have a dark backstory as well and I don't wanna say anything about it." Raven said softly
"I was sexually and drug abused by my mother..she's in jail now after killing all of my family members except my father who's a officer at this school." I said
"Jesus Christ you must have gone through so much.." Raven said
"Yeah I have a rough life..but it will get better hopefully sooner.." I said
"Yeah.." Andy said as he wraps his arms around my shoulder.
"Well..Cya." Raven said sweetly
I waved and walked to the front office.
I saw Nick but Johnny wasn't there...where is he?
I ran towards Nick and hugged him tightly.
"Hey.." Nick said sweetly as he hugged me.
"Where's Johnny?" I said
"He didn't wanna leave the house because something happened while you were at school.." Nick said
"Wait did something happen on Instagram..?" I said
Nick nodded as I followed him to the car meeting Sam there and Maddie.
"So you saw what happened? At school....that video.." I said As we both got in the car.
Nick nodded as he let me cuddle in his arms.
"You okay?..I saw that fucking video on Instagram which made me mad I blocked that girl and reported her like ten times." Sam said
"Yeah..she just kicked me in the ribs..I'm fine." I said
I leaned back in Nick's arms and fell asleep.
[Nicholas's POV]
I felt so bad for Lloyd he was getting just harshly abused at school which made him more and more on the edge of killing himself.
He started to cut himself I already knew that because I saw drops of blood on the bathroom floor then I saw a razor blade in a locked cabinet slightly stained in blood.
I carried Lloyd while he was asleep, I laid him down on the bed seeing Johnny asleep, I sat down next to Johnny.
Johnny woke up and hugged me sleepily.
"How's Lloyd?." Johnny said
"He's fine but he's on the edge well having the urge to kill himself...I just feel like we shouldn't take him back to school." I said
"Wait w-what?..He wants to kill himself..I don't want him to die..he's all we have.." Johnny said
Johnny cuddled next to me and lays his head on my shoulder.
"He doesn't listen to his therapist..he doesn't care he's just in a dark place because of his horrible past.." Johnny said
"I know..If he's gone..I'll loose myself and we'll both go into a depression..." I said
"I hope that doesn't happen..I don't like seeing you sad." Johnny said
I smiled softly and pressed my lips against Johnnys and kissed him roughly.
Johnny wraps his arms around me and falls asleep so do I.
[Time-1:35Am]
[Lloyd's POV]
I quietly sneaked into the bathroom closing the door and locking it and quietly opened the cabinet to find my razor.
I felt the harsh pain on my arm as I felt the blade cut my skin, I felt blood roll down my arm as I began to cut deeper into my skin having an urge to cry out. I mumbled out crying a bit placing the razor blade back into the cabinet and locking it and opening another cabinet grabbing some bandages and covering the cut tightly feeling the pain worsening.
I put the bandages back and quietly climbed back into bed snuggling closer to Nick wrapping my arms around his waist and falling asleep quietly without making a sound.
[A couple of hours later, Time:7:30Am]
I woke up laying in Nick's arms, I laid my head on his chest sleepily.
"Your awake early" Nick said as he noticed I was awake "I was also thinking about telling you something just don't tell Johnny okay." Nick said
I quietly looked around the room and noticed that Johnny wasn't there. I nodded, Nick smiled sweetly.
"I was thinking about marrying Johnny I already bought him a ring..but I'm just too nervous to propose." Nick said blushing softly
"We could do a Instagram live or a live stream on YouTube we're you and Johnny first met." I said
Nick strokes his fingers through my hair gently.
"Good idea, Your the best." Nick said smiling and kissed my forehead.
"Let's tells the others and make a plan" I said
"Ok." Nick said
[A Hour Later]
[Nicholas's POV]
Sam smiled softly as she heard what I said.
"How adorable you want to marry Johnny.." Sam said sweetly
"Yeah..I'm just too nervous and I don't wanna do a wedding..it's just too expensive and there's no way in hell I'll pay for that and two I hate family members.." I said
"Same here! Doesn't everybody hate family?!" Maddie yelled back from her room.
"Fuck it imma set up a camera do to the livestream." Sam said as she got off the couch and ran to my bedroom.
After Sam settled up the camera I did a poll on Johnnys YT channel saying:
Hey guys it's me Nick totallyyy not taking over Johnnys channel to say that we're getting marrrieddd the live stream will be here in a couple of minutes! Love ya!
Lloyd cuddles closer to me wanting me to hold him in my arms,I let him lean back in my arms and watched him fall asleep.
"Okay should we walk there now?" Sam said as she made the live stream and held the camera and her phone looking at the chat.
"Yeah I guess so,Lloyd wake up." I said
"What.." Lloyd groaned as he woke up
"Cmon." I said
"Ughhhh fineee.." Lloyd said sleepily as he follows me
[At The alleyway]
"Why the fuck are we here?" Lloyd said
"This is where me and Johnny met...he usually plays his guitar here alone because his family is always arguing." I said
"That's interesting.." Sam said
Johnny was there leaning against the wall smoking a cigarette closing his eyes barely.
He opens his eyes and sees us, he drags the cigarette away from his lips and smiled sweetly.
"What are you guys doing here?..and I'm not even gonna ask why Sam is holding a camera." Johnny said laughing a bit
"Well..I was gonna tell you something important..." I said blushing softly
"What is it?" Johnny said sweetly
Well.." I said smiling a bit
I pulled out the ring box opening it.
Johnny had tears filling his eyes as he saw it.
"N-Nick..." Johnny said as he started to cry
"Will you marry me my prince?" I said smiling softly
"Y-Yes.." Johnny said as he smiled as tears rolled down his cheeks.
I put the ring on Johnnys finger and kissed him long and lovingly wrapping my arms around him.
"So now Johnnys my father...shit..you both better not be fucking when I'm awake..." Lloyd
Maddie and Sam laughed.
"Hell they've fucked too many times." Sam said laughing
Johnny blushed deeply as he hugged me.
"Samantha Strickland Shut your damn mouth I'm fucking crying..I'm so fucking happy." Johnny whimpered as he wipes the tears out of his eyes and lays his head against my shoulder.
Lloyd hugs Johnny smiling a bit.
Johnny hugs Lloyd back holding back tears.
"Are you trying to not cry again.?" Lloyd said laughing a bit
"Yes...no..maybe.." Johnny said
"Aw Johnny your so emotional." I said
Johnny blushed deeply as he stood up.
"Nick shut the fuck up." Johnny said embarrassingly
I laughed as he kissed Johnny again.
I married him...I'm happy..
I'm finally happy.
I just hope that Lloyd feels better...he's starting to become more depressed every single day...
[Next Week]
Lloyd has become more quiet now he's acting more scared of other people he doesn't know, I talked to his doctor the doctor didn't even know why he said just don't take him outside, Now that's just rude to be honest.
Lloyd snuggles into my arms falling asleep as I was laying on the bed, I kissed him on the forehead smiling softly but I was still worried about him.
[The Next Day / While Lloyd is At school]
"Is Lloyd doing any better?" One of Lloyd's teachers said during a phone call.
I sighed heavily.
"He's on the edge of killing himself...I just don't want him to end up like the way I did when I was suicidal and I was on meds..." I said
"Just put the boy on medication he'll be better." She said softly
"Your just forcing me to make me sons depression worser..if your damn students would leave him alone I'd appreciate that, oh if your trying to make me do a PowerPoint of Lloyd's past and talk for like a couple of hours to your useless class I won't because I have betters things to do." I said sharply
"Well..I wasn't trying to say that.." She said
"Sure." I said rolling my eyes as I hung up.
"Jesus Christ you look tired.." Johnny said as he locked the door looking tired.
"Yeah I haven't slept for hours probably days." I said sarcastically
Johnny smiled softly as he wraps his arms around my waist and snuggles into my arms.
"Your so adorable Johnny." I said as I pressed my lips against his wrapping my arms around him, Johnny kissed back roughly.
"Your such a bad boy aren't you.?" I said as I stroked my fingers through Johnnys hair.
"Im a bad guy.." Johnny said sounding sensual
"Oh really?" I said as I pinned Johnny to the bed blushing softly.
"Hell yeah.." Johnny said as he kissed me wrapping his arms and legs around me as he kissed me roughly.
"You are such a animal.." I said as I kissed Johnny's neck and pulling his shirt off.
"T-Tame m-me~..." Johnny moaned softly
I nodded softly as I wrapped my arms around Johnnys waist on top of him and kissing him uncontrollably.
"F-Fuck m-me.." Johnny purred softly
Johnny snuggles closer to me wrapping his legs around me as I let him lay closer to me.
Johnny pins me on to the bed looking at me with his bright blue eyes.
"You are such a bad guy aren't you..,you have enough evidence don't you?" I said softly
"Yea..now just stay still...
"And let me tame the animal inside of you" Johnny said as he stripped the rest of his and my clothes off.
[Nathan's POV]
Okay so its been like weeks since we saw Nick, Johnny and the rest so after a fucking million days I finally had to leave Chris's house, Even though Chris raped Johnny I still love him as my brother even though hes a fucking psychopath and honestly I think its sick that Chris raped his ex husband after they both filed divorce papers like a couple of months ago! I'm shocked and honestly disgusted of what Chris did to Johnny, I mean Chris told me the whole story and said that Johnny deserved to feel pain and guilt and shame for what he did, well I mean Johnny deserves another chance but Chris didn't that.. he wanted Johnny to suffer, feel pain and guilt and rot in the depths of hate.
Johnny didn't mean to send those..lewd photos to Nick well sort of but he just was mentally attached to Nick ever since they met, Nick was like a brother to Johnny besides Jake,Johnny fell in love with Nick even though Nick was figuring out his sexuality he thought he was straight but in reality he was gay, Nick didn't realize that he was gay but his girlfriend or wife figured it out real easily, so when she left to go to work she checked the cameras that she just installed into their apartment and so she knew that Johnny came over to hang out with Nick, she was shocked of what she saw, she saw Nick and Johnny both asleep in the living room snuggled very close to each other, when she got home she pulled out a small pocket knife and held it behind her back and Nick said "Hey babe why you here so early aren't you supposed to work late or something?" and she replied saying "Don't babe me Nicholas..I thought you were straight but no your gay aren't you?!, I saw you and Johnny sleeping together in the cameras!" Johnny stood up glaring at her, he said "To be honest, Nicholas is my true love..I loved him ever since we met..if you would understand and act like a women instead of acting like a teenager i'd appreciate that." Nicks girlfriend ran up towards Johnny and held the pocketknife against his throat feeling the sharp blade against his skin, tears filled his eyes and she cuts his skin slightly blood dripping off the knife and she let Johnny go to let him run towards Nicholas scared for his life snuggling very closely to Nick whimpering holding his hands against his throat as his fingertips were slowly beginning to get stained with blood.
I quietly walked into the house in the middle of the night hearing a faint moan.
"What the fuck was that?" Jake said
"Parents might be fucking and yep I'm pretty sure they are fucking." Lloyd said as he leans against the wall.
"Jesus Christ Lloyd..does this happen often?" I said
"Yep..I'm used to it..they love me with all their hearts but Johnny he has the urge to fuck Nick..it's like he can't control himself after him and Nick got married." Lloyd said
"W-Wait..they.they..got...."
"Married?!" Me and Jake said