Sincerity is Scary | Calum Hood

Hard Times

Gonna make you wonder why you even try?

Saoirse

Sunday morning was a peaceful day in our house, I can finally breathe after the long tiring week at school.
Sport fest had come and gone bringing us all back to reality stricken responsibility of time consuming projects and non stop studying.
and so I was glad when Sunday finally arrived, I could do what I wanted today . starting of by listening to good music in my sanctuary I called room .

during these days where I finished doing all the school stuff and got nothing else to do, I just lay down in my bed with my usual routines  while listening to songs from my favourite bands. certain lyrics from the song just bring goodvibes and its the best way to clear my head . the lyrics from the song just hit me with memories some were bad, but some were those that made me fluttered.

A smile crept onto my face as the image of Calum's flash on my mind.it was already days ago when I had the best few moments of my life with the worlds most beautiful guy. it felt surreal and until now , I could still remember how he look at me . it was a disaster but after that incident and my impulsive approached to him, everything was back to normal. I was taken back to where I should be, watching him from afar.

As my mind started to fill with cute scenario out of nowhere ,it hit me .Have you ever experienced when you have already something beautiful on your mind then your embarrassing moment started flowing like a massive orgasm and all you can do is just close your eyes.Well it happened the day after the sport fest where I was seated across Eleanor together with some of our classmate inside the school cafeteria . we were eating our lunch peacefully and so does the others . in the middle of the small stilly chattering around the cafeteria,something had stuck in my throat that made me cough.

it was loud ,sticky and sharp cough.

I was froze. the whole room  started to fill with snorts and laughs except on our table. they,including El had their head down, keeping as hard as they could to hold themselves from laughing while the others were confused and had no clue onto who it was.

" that was so gross "

That moment,I thought I was going to faint but I did not.

Reclining off from my bed, I took my phone from the studytable and flipped through it,feeding myself with nonsense contents from Facebook before plopping back to my comfy bed. my phone was stick up just above my face,a habit of mine as I continue to scroll mindlessly through it, liking memes and other photos from my highschool. A good memes came into view, which made me laugh. my thumb reach the react button but As I did, I miscalculated my movement ended up slipping the phone from my grip and smacked right into my face . my face twisted in pain as I hurriedly went to look at myself in the mirror,checking my teeth if it was still intact. I tossed my blonde hair over my shoulder and cursed under my breath.My figers brush gently against my upper lip which is swelling  now due to my clumsiness and another hiss slipped out from my mouth.

an audible sigh escape from my moutj as I took my clothes off and twisted the shower on. the cold droplets of water started to cover every inch of my skin causing shiver to run down my spine.  I grab the bottle of shampoo and squeeze an adequate amount before massaging it all over my hair while singing the indistinct lyric of the song that was currently playing from my bedroom. I'm not good when it comes to singing, more accurately,singing does not love me but it does not stop me. you're not living the fullest extent if you never sing in the bathroom. 

the water started it's job to rinse my hair causing the bubble to drifted slowly onto my forehead until it reach the delicate corner of my eyes.

After few cursing and struggling to wipe it out inside the shower ,I was finally done. I sprinted across my room and threw myself with some clothes.