Who Am I, Really?

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Only after many hours pass, and the Sun transforms into the Moon, do I leave her. Bunny has assured me that she has been moved to a proper hospital room inside Walter Manor. Everyone has already heard about Paige (even my brothers), and they are all telling me to sleep on it, and check on her in the morning. I just can't wait that long, and being a robot, I really don't need to sleep. I follow the path I used to get to my room, down the red carpeted stairs, past all of the posters, past the dark windows, and into one of the many labyrinth-style halls. I keep walking, turning my direction once in a while, until I have searched through the entire West Wing. But, as I start my descent into the East Wing, I start to hear moaning. "W-w-who's there?" I ask.

"Rabbit?"

"P-P-PAIGE!" My photoreceptors search for her in the blinding dark, until I see the beginnings of a flashlight's light. I run towards the light, not caring anymore if I wake someone up. I find Paige, hug her, kiss her, worship her, happy that she is feeling better. "I w-w-was looking for your room!"

"And I-ow was looking for yours." I could see in the way she talked that every word hurt her so much. "I-ahh!" She starts to fall backwards.

"D-d-don't worry; I got'cha," I say, lifting her back up from the floorboards. "Shouldn't you be in y-y-your room, my dear?"

"Yes...but I wanted to see you...before...before..."

"Before what?"

"Before they make me leave tomorrow."

"What? Y-y-you're...leaving?"

"Yes. Doctor's orders. They want me to spend the last few days I have left with my family...before...I...before I...die."

"Oh..."I say, feeling more distraught than I ever have, even when my gender dysphoria was at its peak of depression. "Do you have to go? I-I-I just don't want to go through what I had to go through with Honeybee and Julia. Why d-d-do I break everything I love?" The tears start to return, and I feel so helpless.

"You haven't broken me, my dear...I broke myself...if I was looking where I was going..."

"If I hadn't suggested the race..."

"If I had gone with you to see Six..."

"If I c-could've talked it out with Spine..."

"If I wasn't so stupid..."

"If I didn't have this p-p-problem..."

"If I wasn't working on something..."

"If I had n-n-never existed..." I say, turning my head away, wiping the few oily tears away from my photoreceptors.

"Wait, what? You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, Rabbit! If you never existed..." she pulls my head back to face her, wiping away my tears.

"Y-y-ya wouldn't be dying right now."

"Yes, but...I wouldn't feel...happy." I pick her up again,and hold her close to my face.

"W-w-what?"

"I would feel something missing from my life...you. Who would've thought that I would fall in love with a 118 year old gal." Those few words meant so much to me.

If only I had known that they would be the last words I would ever hear from her.

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