Once Upon a Time

This is the end

The end of sophomore year is approaching fast. Two more days then I'm a junior. It's at the end of the year that I learn who my true friends are and who aren't. I'm scared to say the least. I know I'm gonna get grounded all summer I just know it. So the thoughts running through my head are, will Logan still love me after three long months of no communication? Or will he leave me like they always do... The end of a long hard, mentally taxing year is coming to and end. I want to say next year will be better but I know it won't. Things don't change that easily, I've lost someone so close to me and the sad thing is, I feel happier with them gone. In two years I will be a senior. At the age of 18, I will be living by myself trying to figure my life out. Unlike most of my friends, when I turn 18, I will be moving out of both my parents houses and living by myself. I hold on to that, it is one of the only things keeping me going, I'm trying hard to not listen to the voices in my head telling me I'm not good enough, I'm not strong enough, I don't mean enough, that I'm fat, ugly, stupid and worthless but it's mentally taxing fighting this war everyday from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed. 

But I still fight, I fight to prove myself wrong, to prove everyone else wrong, I fight for Logan, and I fight for my future. It's sad to say but 5 months ago, I couldn't even see a future, all I saw was emptiness and black. But now, I see a future and I'm fighting so hard to achieve it. I will Graduate high school, I will go to college, I will get married and I will love my occupation. I will be successful because I believe in myself.