Little baby | ED

num num

Ethan has been really little lately, like he needs a pacifier a lot more often, he sleeps only in my room and he doesn't talk as much.

It's like having an actually little baby.

I saw him laying beside me half awake, I scooped him up in my arms and held him tight under the covers.

" mommy " he mumbled.

" mm " I reply back playing with his hair.

" num num " he replied

" you want your num num do you " I asked

He nodded

" well what is the good boy word "

" please can I-I have num n-um " he stuttered, he's definitely still tired.

Num num means pacifier by the way.

I grab the pacifier and place it between his lips and pulled his body into mine, his face laid in the crook of my neck and his wings tickled the side of my face.

" mmm " he moaned in satisfaction, it was not sexual but I can't tell when he's feeling super comfortable because he moans.

I run my finger nails across his back.

" go sleep baby " I say

" momma always loves you my darling " I kissed his head.

" mommy " he whines rubbing his eyes.

" what's up " I fiddle with his t-shirt and rub his sides.

" sorry mommy for being a bad boy "

" no bubba your not a bad boy, you've been a very good boy today baby, why would you think that "

" because I've been really hard work and fussy "

" I'm sorry I'm so little, I wish I-I w-as big for yo-u " he checked out tears threatening to pour out any minute.

I kissed the middle of his forehead and a tear rolled down his soft cheek.

I held him even closer to me, grabbing his thigh and pulling on my leg to make him more comfortable.

" Ethan, your my little baby, it doesn't how little you are, I'll still love you the same "

" yeh , you can be really fussy when your very little but that's normal, your not being naughty baby. If you were being a bad boy momma wouldn't be cuddling you right now, okay "

Ethan's head still cuddled up on his mommy's chest he nodded.

" baby I think your tired " I say.

"Mmm" he whined rubbing his eyes.

My tired baby.

"Lay down sweetheart"

His head went into the crook of my neck and I rubbed his belly, kissing his head lightly.

I caressed his hair stroking and twiddling my finger through the especially long parts.

" goodnight baby "