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A month flew by like nothing. The house is all packed up and the moving truck is outside waiting to be filled by boxes. They would be delivered to the new house that Matthew, Junghyun, and I will be living in.  

I walked through the house I've lived in for the past 5 years. I walked down the upstairs hallway looking at where all the pictures used to be. I looked inside my room seeing how empty everything looked. 

I walked downstairs and grabbed the last box from the house out to the moving truck. I handed it to the driver of the truck and thanked him. I walked over to Junghyun and Matthew who were waiting on the porch.

Junghyun pulled out the house key and locked the house before we walked to the car. I got into the back seat and grabbed my headphones out of my backpack. I plugged them into my phone and played soft happy music for the long drive.

I pulled the camera up on my phone and took a boomerang to post on my Instagram story. I turned my phone off and grabbed a book out of my bag. I flipped halfway through it and found the page I left off on.

'Baby, won't you take it back? Say you were trying to make me laugh and nothing has to change today, you didn't mean to say 'I Love You', I love you and don't want to, ooh'

I looked up from my book and saw my brother and Matthew holding hands over the center console. Matthew had a big smile on his face and laughing. I let a small smile paint itself across my face before going back to reading.

'Don't you know too much already? I'll only hurt you if you let me. Call me friend but keep me closer, and I'll you when the party's over, quiet when I'm coming home and I'm on my own. And I could lie say I like it like that like it, like that'

We stopped to get gas and use the bathroom. Matthew came back to the car with snacks and drinks. We started driving again and we're going down an empty road surrounded by trees of many shades of green.

I pull out my sketchbook and colored pencils and draw out a picture of the trees. I looked out the window and saw the contrast to the grey clouds filling the sky to the dark black road below the car's wheels. 

'Tell me which one is worse, living or dying first? sleeping inside a hearse. I don't dream, you say come over, baby. Do you think I'm pretty? I'm okay I'm not your baby,'

I feel my eyes get heavy as the rain starts to pour down out of the sky. The harsh pitter patter lulling me to sleep.

"Just leave the group already, you know that no one here really wants you here. You know that we don't care about you in any way, so why are you even here standing in front of me right now? What is your purpose of staying in this group? You did nothing for this group, you sit back and let us three write music for you to sing you let those two work their asses off choreographing dances for you to dance, you take the food that Jin makes you for granted. How spoiled can you be to not see that, do you even realize how much of a spoiled brat you are?"He yelled at me as we took a break during practice.

I got up and ran out of the practice room and ran home. I could feel the tears forming. Why is Hgh School so hard? Why are people so mean to others? 

I ran inside the house ignoring my brother, I locked my door and cried into my pillow in the back of my closet. 

The next day I resigned from the dance team at my High School. I went to the finals to support them. Our school has won first place for the past 3 years that I've been on the team but that year they lost. The thing that got me was they used the song we recorded for the performance with my vocals in it. 

I woke up and felt a single tear run down my checks. I rubbed my eyes and let out a yawn. I looked out the window and saw we were in a little town.

"Hey Kook, are you hungry," I heard Matthew ask.

"A little, why?"I asked.

"We were thinking of stopping at a little dinner up ahead before driving to the town our hotels in, "Junghyun said. 

"Sure," I said and laid my head on the car door and listened to the music being played as background noise and the constant conversation between Junghyun and Matthew.

Junghyun pulled into the parking lot of a small dinner for us to have dinner at. I got out of the car and walked behind the two love birds. We got a booth in the restaurant. The waiter that took our order was around my age. He had dark hair and a cute round face. 

I ordered a burger and fries along with a Coke. I got up to use the bathroom after the waiter left and noticed how tall he was. He was almost a full foot taller than me.

I came back to my seat and saw my coke on a napkin with numbers on it. I pulled the napkin off the table and put it in my pocket.

Around 10 minutes went by and the waiter brought us our food. I ate my burger and most of the fries before I was full. The waiter came back and gave us the check. I looked at it seeing how much my meal was so I could pay Junghyun back.

It said at the top the name of our waiter. His name is Park Hyun Su. I gave the check to Junghyun hyung who put a 50 on the table after looking at the bill and when Hyun Su came to get the bill before we left Junghyun hyung told him to keep the change. I saw his eyes get twice as big as they were before. 

Junghyun knows how much tips are worth waiters and people in customer service. He used to work at a cafe in town when he was 16 all the way to 19. We got back into the car and began driving again.