perfectly imperfect <<<< Austin Post Story

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I set my alarm for 8. That gave my two hours to get ready. I decided since it was just my house I was goin to wear a red ruffled crop and adidas sweatpants. I did light makeup and just let my hair kinda fall over my body. After I got ready and made coffee I sat and watched tv. I kept looking at the time over and over. 10:59. Almost. Any second now. At 11:03 I hear a knock. I jump up and try to act cool as I open the door. I see Austin standing there messy bun and white shirt with basketball shorts. I pull him in for a deep hug. We walk around and I show him everything. We end up in my bed talking about everything. He looks over at me "we haven't became official yet." I looked over at him. "what do you mean" He looked down and I could tell whatever he was going to say was hard for him. "You know boyfriend girlfriend. I never asked if you would be mine." I smiled at that word. mine. I went a little closer to his warm body. "Well i'm sure you can ask now. It's never too late" He smiled and knew that I wasn't going to turn him down. "So Beasley. will you be my girlfriend" I smiled and kissed his cheek. "Yes yes yes" I kissed him three times on the forehead then on his nose. He pulled my body up on top of him. He patted my lower back "perfect" he smiled. I knew we had to talk about the hard stuff now. His face told me he knew it too. "So I was with Ashlen." I looked away. "I know" I knew he dated her and they were in love but I didn't know what happened. Fans still ask him what happened and he always just says "you know we didn't really vibe well together. And that's important in life finding the person you vibe with." But then looking at his concerts he always says "this goes out to the stupid bitch that broke my heart." So I obviously knew he has been heartbroken. I don't even know why we had to talk about the hard stuff right now. "I just wanted to tell you what happened so if you wanted an out you can have one. Also so you don't hear rumors that make you hate me. It's better to come clean now then you find out later and hate me." I make eye contact with him. He looks sad. Like he's about to loose me. I lay on his chest. "No matter what i'm in." I said and kissed him through his shirt. He smiled and pulled me closer to him. "We dated and went on a interview together. It's called the breakfast club." I laughed a little. "That's my favorite movie. Or used to be I guess" Austin smiled at my joke. I wanted to show him I was on his side no matter what. "Well the person talking to us made a hint that I was going to cheat on Ashlen. That made her pretty upset." I looked up at him still on his chest. "What?? Why the fuck could they say that. That's not okay they can't pin you as a bad guy." I started feeling super angry. "It's fine Tay don't worry" I still felt anger but his hands on my back made me feel calm. "Anyways when we were on a break she slept with a bunch of guys. But we were on a break so I just thought I couldn't get mad. So when we get back together she started sleeping with them again. I found out and did the same. Then she would cry saying im cheating on her and she would tell me if I left her she would die. I didn't know what to do. She was a huge mess but I I loved her." These words fell out of his mouth. I moved away a little from him. I sat up now. He kept talking "Then she kept saying I couldn't leave her and she wanted it this way and not that way and all this shit." I stopped listing. "Finally I figured this wasn't good for either of us. She cheated on me,manipulated me so I broke it up for good." He stopped talking waiting for me to give him an answer. I stared at him. He loved her. "Do-do you still love her" I said so quietly that I couldn't even hear it myself. He sat up and grabbed my hand. "Do you still love her" this time I yelled. "No tay i'm completely over that chapter in my life. I thought it was best for you to hear what happened from me and not some stupid fucking
news reporter who only cares about dumb drama." I stood up. He doesn't love her tay I kept saying in my head. I screamed it in my head. Go to him. My mind kept screaming at me that he doesn't love her and to go to him. "Maybe you should go. I appreciate the honesty. I'm going to Rains house tonight anyways." His eyes got darker when I said that. I couldn't even look at him I had to turn away. "Taylor why are you upset?" I looked at him and his face was completely shattered. "I'm upset because of how you acted when you said you loved her like it was so hard for you to move on. I'm upset because this is all so much and I have to think about it. i'm UPSET because i've had one boyfriend and we kissed once than broke up." He looked down at his feet. He started walking towards the door. My heart fell to the ground. Why are you over reacting I asked myself. Don't push him away. Don't push the love of your life away. He closed the door and didn't say anything else. I let myself cry,really cry.