Arrogant asshole

●●Forty●●

Jin had his arms around you and you were laying on his chest. Your eyes were red and puffy with tears...The boys are all gathered together. Sat in a circle, mourning Jimin as if he were dead...he might as well of been, he's dead to you.

"So no one knew this was happening?" Namjoon said after a time.

"Yeah he just left" Taehyung said sadly.

There was another moment of silence...

"Is there a reason he would so that? I don't understand why he would just leave" Hoseok joined in, holding onto Yoongi's hand gently, Whist Yoongi looked at him sadly.

You were about speak but Jin squeezed his arms around you and whispered into your ear.

"Don't, you don't need to say if you don't want to" He said so gently you thought there was velvet coming out of his mouth. Jin's words put you at ease.

"No I should..." You mumbled. "He left because of me", Jin looked at you sadly.

In fact you looked up and everyone looked up at you with a look of pity and confusion.

"Before you ask, I don't know why he just said it was because of me" You said in an angry tone...well because you were fucking angry!

Jimin with his bullshit, spending nearly everyday with you then leaving you in a heartbeat. Fucking bitch.

"I'm gonna take Y/N on a walk guys" Jin mumbled and stood up with you.

"I'm not a dog Jin" You growled out.

Jin just stayed silent and ushered you outside the house.

"Don't even say it Jin"  You turned round and hissed at him.

"What-?"

You cut him off. You weren't finished.

"You were gonna say are you okay Y/N? Looking at me with those big eyes, looking at me like I'm fragile! I'm not anymore...I've changed I'm strong I don't care about Jimin. Are you kidding!? That stupid asshole, son of a bitch. Yeah he left because of me but what do I care? I DON'T CARE!!!" You raged, huffing and seeing red.

Jin then took your shoulders and kissed you, his lips meeting yours calming you down. He left your lips buzzing, his hands placed gently on your face...

"Why did you just kiss me?" You whispered.

"Sorry I just didn't want to see you upset and I had to shut you up somehow" He laughed softly. Wiping the tears from your face which you didn't know you had...

"Kiss me again"

"W-What?"

"Kiss me, please" you begged and leaned forward. Jin hesitated but ended up leaning back towards you.

****

Days turned into weeks and weeks into months, when will it be over?

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Jimin pov

I inhaled the smoke into my lungs but coughed out violently. fuck I haven't smoked in ages. Why did I stop anyway?

Oh yeah because of her.

This is bullshit....

Swinging on the swing set I threw away the cigarette...it no longer made me feel comfort. It only reminded me of the only thing I can't have.

The only thing I want.

I should have given in, fucked my way into happiness. I could have too, many girls wanted me...maybe if I said yes I wouldn't be feeling this way.

But I feel like I'm kidding myself here.

Why the hell did I think my feelings would change? That one day I could turn it off, only in an ideal world that can happen.

She's probably found someone else by now..

It makes me angry to think about but I have no right to that. That's the whole reason I left.

The one girl I couldn't have.

Kids were starting to enter the playground, the parents silently judging me as I brooded desperately.

I guess now's a time to go back?

I've been depressed for months...haha.

What a joke.

It makes me wonder about them, the boys...my family in a way. I'm sure Tae's broken up about it, but then again maybe he's moved on...

What if they all have...

Maybe it would be best if I just stay away and let them be happy..

But when have I ever been selfless?

I was once, when I left to make her happy. I just hope she is happy without me.

With someone better than me.

Someone good and not broken.

Like me.

I miss her.

Leaving the playground, I left the judging parents behind...just like I left her.

Haha I'm a fucking idiot.

Please just be happy Y/N...

Please

*****
I was holding in my breath, the gang house smiling brightly at me. I was so relieved, I was home..but would they even let me back now?

My feet were stuck.

I wanted to go, I should just leave... shifting round I started to walk away.

They would be better without me..

"Jimin?"

My ears didn't hear the door open. Before I could react I felt myself being wrapped into the tightest hug I've ever been in. It made me feel so good.

"Jimin don't ever leave me again"

They cried and hugged me tighter.

"I'm sorry Tae...." I mumbled softly and leaned my head onto his chest.

"You idiot, why didn't you call me? Or answer my calls" he said annoyed.

"I'm sorry" I repeated and hugged him tighter. He understood and just went silent, embracing me.

"Come on let's tell the others your here" he said happily and took me into the house, with little protest from me.

I was happy to be back...maybe they did need me afterall.

"Jimin?"

"Jimin!"

"That's Jimin!"

Voices I've missed all shot out at once, no one asked questions as to where I've been or to what I've been up to. We all simply group hugged without a word....

I could almost cry..

"I've missed you guys so much" I said happily.

"Hah! Didn't seem like it" a voice growled, my head turned and Y/N was glaring at me, Jin went to her side instantly after seeing her. Whispering into her ear, touching her arm.

My blood started to boil.

"oh...um Hi Y/N" I mumbled out touching the back of my neck.

"Fucking eat a dick and choke Park Jimin" she spat as she stormed away and upstairs, Jin following her quickly. I made a move to go after them but Yoongi stopped me.

"She needs time" Yoongi said softly and I reluctantly nodded.

Maybe I shouldn't have come back..

She glared daggers at me as she disappeared around the corner.

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