monachopsis

19

my phone chimes
"new message from....."
all i know is it's not you
and i'm disappointed that it isn't truly you

it could be my email for being accepted into Auburn University, but it doesn't matter

it could be a message from my father saying that my grandfather was admitted into the hospital, but it doesn't matter

it could be my childhood best friend actually checking in on me for once, but it doesn't matter

all i want is to talk to you, but you won't talk to me

6-12-19