Starry Eyes ~ Nikki Sixx

Jet Airliner

Razzle had been uncharacteristically pensive all through the  afternoon. He was lost in his own little world, chewing his lip and staring off into space. Even when I tried to ask him what was on his mind, he barely responded. 

We went out to eat and I had hoped he'd snap out of it, but he didn't. Mike and the rest of the boys, however, were in high spirits, often excitedly shouting to one another in Finnish.

"All right, all right, let's give the Captain a moment," Andy insisted, waving his hands and drawing a hush over them. 

"Okay, guys! Let's keep it short and sweet, eh? It's been a lot of work but," Michael said, lifting up his glass, "every album gets better, and every tour makes us stronger. Here's to the best years of our lives, boys," the others raised their glasses. "Here's to Japan!" he yelled, receiving a chorus of wild, excited cheers from the others.

I must have had happy bewilderment plastered on my face; I had no idea what the fuck just happened. Still, I was happy for them; they were excited about something, and it was big.

I looked over at Razzle, whose smile slowly faded when we locked eyes. A sinking feeling told me that they were going to go to Japan, and I was not invited.

I broke away from his gaze, focusing on the happy faces around me. I looked from Andy, who was currently leaning over his plate, doing a bump to keep him up, to where Sammi and Nasty were horsing around, ecstatic for their next adventure. Michael sat at the end of the table with an ear to ear grin, playing with his bangles while he laughed at the others.

A boot lightly nudged me under the table, and I looked over to Razzle, who motioned for me to follow him out for a smoke.

He didn't say a word until we had finally stepped outside.

"So, we're goin' to Japan soon..."

"So I gathered," I replied, focusing on the way my cigarette was burning. "I'm happy for you. That's exciting." It wasn't intentional, but the words came out much icier than expected.

"Are... Are you mad at me?" he asked in confusion, leaning cartoonishly to the side to look at me through his bangs as he took a puff.

"Why would I be mad at you?"

"I dunno. You jus' don't seem... you at the moment."

"I am excited for you. I'm just going to miss you... a lot," I mumbled, my eyes misting over slightly.

His posture changed suddenly before he easily replied, "Come to Japan with me."

"W-what?"

"You 'eard me. Come to Japan with us. See how we tour."

"Razzle, I wouldn't want to impose-"

"You wouldn't be."

"But what about the guys? What do they think?"

"Mmm, Mike thinks we'll have a threesome, but the rest don't mind that," he joked. "No, but really, they don't mind."

I thought for a moment, tossing the butt in the ashtray.

"Are you sure? Because if you change your mind, I can't just be ditched in the middle of Japan.

"Why would I ever do that?!" he asked in shock.

"It's happened before..."

"Oh, come on, Sadie! You know I have feelings for you," he stressed, nearly shouting. "Why else would I go 'round with you and introduce you to the boys- and I helped you out with the other bloke! I like you a lot an' I want you to go with me. I don't want you to be worried or alone. Come to Japan with us," he pleaded, holding my hands in his. "I want you there; it would be the best time I could imagine."

"Okay," I answered, feeling my smile grow. "I've got an open schedule." I added with a wink.

He excitedly hugged.

"I was worried that you'd say no."

"Why did you think that I'd say no?"

"I dunno. You've been through a lot and I don't want to throw you back into that... circus."

"I don't think your circus is as crazy as their circus. LA boys party differently. And they die differently, so behave yourself," I warned.

"Ahh, I can't wait to spend the tour with you. It's gonna be great," he mumbled, putting an arm around my shoulders before suggesting we head back inside to the celebration.

Before we reached the door, I had one final note to add to his to do list.

"And the threesome with Michael... well, it could happen."

"You're amazing."

Here is the link for this story's "soundtrack." I do not own any of the songs.

https://8tracks.com/luckypsycho13/vintage-eyes